-Indescribable Words-♥

2011

2011-01-01T03:01:00.006+08:00

Another year had passed,

Why did time has to fly so fast?
Is this another new beginning?
Or has there never been an ending?

Whatever it is, 2010 had been one hell of a year. I remember, the first day of school, the moment I stepped into 3 Oriole, I thought my Form 3 life would be shitty. But it didn't turn out that way.
Although there were people that I don't like, my whole year in 3 Oriole rocked to the max.
Falling asleep during Geo lessons, being scolded by Maths teacher, joking during English lessons and most of all, breaking the rules with my mates. And, we had the best form teacher ever, Miss Chee. =D

Sonia and Me.

We've met each other since we were in primary. She was the assistant head prefect, and I was a prefect too. But we were never really friends until 2010. I don't know how we got so close, but she's considered as one of my closest friends now. I love hanging out with her. And because of her, I met this guy. =D I don't know why those memories with her kept flashing in my mind. Every moment, every second. Especially days after PMR, where we broke SOOO MANY school rules together. Sneaking out to Parade after school. Bringing illegal stuffs. Wearing our lens. Taking lots and lots of pictures together. I miss her so much. Honestly, I want to be in the same class with her, if I can. I'm just glad that we're friends. =D

And then, there's Shammi and Winnie. Frankly speaking, I used to hate Winnie. No hard feelings babe. But after communicating with her, I found that she's a nice person. Thou' sometimes she can be a little annoying, but it makes us all laugh. =P And Shammi. Innocent, naive and smart little girl. I love you just the way you are. Don't change. (:

Then there's this fella, which I call T R E X. =D I don't know how we started chatting with each other. All I know is that I love chatting with him. Those FIFA nights with him were awesome. Netherlands. Sneijder! =D Sms-ing everyday. Thou' we had some problems, everything's fine now. And I hope this rainbow would stay forever like this. KACANG HITAM. =P

You see, my 2010 was awesome 'cause of these people. And of course, scoring straight A's in my PMR was the best gift after all. I love you guys so much. ♥♥

R.A.W.R.!

2010-10-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

*SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAMSSSSSS!*

SMOKE COMING OUT FROM MY HEAD NOW!
I'm so pissed!

=.=!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE WITH YOU ANYMORE!
I wish I could go back to the time where FIFA was still on.
Or to the time where we didn't know each other that much!

RAWRS!!! YES I SEDANG MERAJUK! So what?!

Stubborn people + stubborn people = SUPER EXPLOSION!

ISH! ISH! ISH!

Catching Up is Pretty Hard

2010-10-18T00:24:00.003+08:00

I was missing in action for a really really long time.

The biggest battle of the year is over.
I'm done with studying my head off.
I hope I did not screw my BM, Science and KH.

I'm even done with my ~~love~~ life.

I don't know what to blog about. I've not been blogging for such a long time that I don't know where to start now.
Throughout these few months, a lot of stuffs happened.
And somehow, I feel the change in me. I'm changing into a worse person. I don't know why but I seriously feel like I'm going the wrong way.

First, every year God makes me meet a new friend. As in, someone whom I can get close with.
It has been like this for quite some time. After the last one left, always comes a new one.
And then I started talking to this one, whom I met few times but I did not notice.

But there's just something that is holding me back from opening up to this fella.
I don't know what is that. But, I don't wanna lose this fella.

Then, I'm jealous of one of my best friend. That is so not me. I feel like slapping myself.

Second, one of my friend ain't talking to me. I don't know what happened or what's wrong with her.
But seriously, you can just tell me FACE to FACE.

I'm darn disappointed. I tried to be nice. I was patient enough I know that. I accepted you as a friend. But you just wouldn't change, will you?

THIRD, why must people always differentiate between each other?
Ever since I dropped to Oriole class, I've started seeing some REAL faces of some people.
I don't want to mention those people are from which class but you might know and I don't care.
One thing I never want to do is comparing my results and telling people how much I got for exams. 'Cause I know THOSE who are in classes above Oriole will start GOSSIPING if they know ORIOLE people get higher marks than them.

Get a live people. =.=

FOURTH, a good news. The problem with one of my best best best friend is over! =D That's the only thing I'm happy about. 'Cause the days without him were MISERABLE. I couldn't tell anyone, except God what was happening to me, and what was wrong and stuffs. And now I can tell him. =D *SMILES*

Fifth, I've been really messed up these few weeks. I don't feel like I'm myself. I get angry easily. I get upset easily. And....sometimes, I cry myself to sleep. I may look happy and calm in school, I may wear a smile everyday, but on the inside, I'm not what I look on the outside.
I gotta grow up and be strong, cause soon, I'll have no one to rely on. I just wish I have the strength.

Everything seems to be falling apart. Thou' I really don't know what to do. I realised I'm keeping myself away from people, especially that someone whom I don't wanna lose.
I don't want my own problems to effect the friendship between us. I just couldn't stay away.
Omygosh I really don't know what to do. . .

if love conquers all,
then why is money more important?
if love means everything,
then why are they still leaving?

Commitments? Trying to be a good Christian?

2010-06-07T12:56:00.004+08:00

John 3:16 says ;

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, so that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life"

I remember this verse very well. And i love that song, John 3:16. (:

Yesterday's MYF praise and worship was awesome. During worship, I closed my eyes. And when I closed my eyes, I couldn't feel anyone around me. But I felt the presence of God. I meant what I said.

We singed, we prayed. I prayed...I prayed to God to thank him for giving me strength to finish that 10km walk.

I don't know why, everytime during praise and worship, I can feel this guilty-ness in me. I don't know why, tears will just fill my eyes. And everytime, I'll TRY to be a better person. I try not to sin. Its hard . . . yes it is.
Some people might just think I'm acting. Up to you. I don't wanna care. As long as I myself know it's not an act.

And now,I know why I'd feel guilty. Its because I've sinned. Jesus died for us on the cross to wash away our sins, and yet, we sin.
I swear and I lie. These two things, are sin. Last year, I swore a lot. I swore like it was nobody's business. I FEEL TERRIBLY BAD okayyyyy! I lied for so many times. I've lied to my Mom, I've lied to my friends, I've lied to my teachers!

Even a tiny tiny meenie lie . . . its still a sin. We can control ourselves from swearing, but what about telling lies? Sometimes we choose to lie to someone because the truth hurts. Sometimes we choose to lie because we're afraid of the consequences that might happen. Sometimes we lie because we're FORCED to.

All these, the consequences of lying will be even bigger than telling the truth. The truth might hurt, but, we've all been thinking for ourselves. What about the person we lie to?
And now I realized that telling the truth is better than lying.

Last few years, I've been a not-so-good-girl. Maybe it was because I mixed with the wrong group of friends and got influence, or maybe it was just me myself. But ever since I started going to church, and then to my very first youth camp, I started to change. I changed even more when I mixed with my DEFORMERS. I can actually feel the changes in me.

Like I said, I used to swear like it was nobody's business. But now, you won't hear me swearing unless I'm really really REALLY pissed off. You won't hear a single vulgar word from my mouth.
But then, everytime when I'm pissed off, I'll tell myself . . .DO NOT SWEAR, DO NOT SWEAR.

LOL! It's just a way to motivate myself. :D
Who cares, right? As long as I don't swear. I fee like I'm really changing. I've rejected all the guys that asked me, you know what lar. Cause I know this is not the right time to be involved in BGR.

I'm not changing into a NERD okayy, I'm just changing to a BETTER person. BLEKKK.

I'm not Baptized yet, you know. I don't feel like I'm ready to fulfill the commitments yet.
I'll wait till I'm ready. (:

Sometimes, I feel lost without God. But then, I'll pray to him and tell him my problems. It's more like, talking to God like He's a close close close friend of mine. In fact, He is! There is NONE like Him. He stays, He listens, He answers prayers. He NEVER turn away and is always the same.
And after praying, I'll eventually feel better. It's like, a burden is being lifted from my shoulders.
That feeling is just awesome. :)

Hmmm . . . I guess I'll pray more often starting from now. And I wanna learn more about God. And and. . .I wanna be like him. Not like, having powers and stuffs. But, be more forgiving like God. And love people even though they're hard to be loved.

And that's all. (: AWESOME GOD! JESUS CHRIST, OUR SAVIOR.

Star-----walk-walk-walk-walk

2010-06-06T22:00:00.002+08:00

S T A R W A L K

memang pun!

2010 STARWALK!

Oh oh, before that, exam's over! Yet, a pile of holidays' homework waiting to be completed. Sighs.

~~akurindudia.~~ :(

Back to STARWALK topic.

Aku pergi ke rumah NICOLE TAN pada Sabtu malam dan tidur semalaman di rumah dia.
Kami buat kerja sekolah. Lepas tu, kami KSS-ed sampai pukul 1.30A.M +.

HAHA. Sorry, back to English.
Starwalk . . . starwalk. Aku tak suka padamu. You made my leg cramp, my heels ada blister and my muscle pain.

This year's Starwalk was boleh tahan lar. And I actually walked with my girlfriends. (: When I reached there and registered, I didn't really see a lot of people. And I was glad lar. xD

Bad things happened. Halfway walking, ZALE fell down and skinned her knees. Luckily, she could continue walking. Then, we saw JO MUN sedang dirawat by one of the St. Johns. See see, she fell down also.

Managed to finish on time. Glad glad. My ELEVEN MARKS is still with me. Hehe.
Then, after the walk, we wanted to go to the foodcourt to makan. When we reached there, we couldn't even find a place to sit! So I decided pergi KFC lor.

I never thought bad things could happen to me. When we were walking, as in, me, ZALE and NICOLE, my left leg cramped. The worst ever. I couldn't stand the pain you know. We were like, at the road side. But but...at last, less than FIVE minutes, I told the both of them nevermind. Lets continue walking. :D

The pain was still there, but I couldn't just sit there right. I'm not lying...the pain was really...really...really....GOSH. It was like, my leg was being pulled off. LOL!

And then arh, when we were almost reaching, I told NICOLE,

ANN: Ehhh, today awesome lar. The people I xmau nampak they didn't appear.

the next moment. . .

ANN: whatthecrap! (hankeat was just infront)

Automatically, I walked behind of NIC and ZALE.

Makan-ed kat KFC after that. LI XIN, CHAK, DENNIS and another person aku x tau, joined us too. Saw ISAAC...=.=!!!

Went home after that, then went for MYF. Sighs. Ada orang x pergi because he OVERSLEPT.
:(

Then, MINTA MAAF lar KHOO KEN XIN! The conversation last night was just a joke. And sorry for not CHOI-ing you during MYF today. Was really tired, and wasn't EMO.
Don't take the conversation so seriously, OKAY?

There, end of everything. I'll upload the pictures I took, when I'm not as sleepy as now. (:
Gonna go TA KEI now. TATA

This is just BLAHBLAH

2010-05-28T00:05:00.003+08:00

Mid-year exam finally started.
One more week to suffer before holidays arrive.
8 more days to go before I can enjoy myself. (Starwalk)

17 more days to the day of my day.

I'm looking forward, and not looking backward. Cause once I start to stop and look back, I'll feel tired and I'll feel like giving up. Just stop and stay there.
I've felt like that for so freakin' many times.

Time is flying fast. We're stepping into June in a few days' time. I can't believe that it's going to be June soon. Just, too fast.
Geez, trying hard to keep up with time. In just a blink of an eye, I'll be in Form 4 then.

Nooooooooo . . . not so fast.

Soooo, here's the plan;

After mid-year exam is holidays. TWO WEEKS. So, I'm gonna enjoy myself. I'm gonna go for Starwalk. And I'm gonna go for badminton and then MYF. I'm gonna go for movies! I'm gonna sleep late and wake up late. I'll online every night. I'll SMS till my phone explodes. LOL!
I'm gonna try out new recipes. Write more stories. Create more poems.
And finally, PUT MY BOOKS ASIDE.

Phewwwwwwwww, that's what I wanna do. But right now, I'm feeling tired and stressed. What if my mid-year results ain't good? Geez, I haven't even start sitting for the important papers yet. Sigh. And at the same time . . . I have personal problems too.
Wattudo??

My so called godbro, we haven't been talking for weeks. Or for the WHOLE month.
I wish you'd read this.

You know what? I thought you're a good, kind, loving, caring, awesome person with a really good personality. HA HA HA. Biggest joke on Earth. I was so totally wrong.
Maybe, you WERE like this before. And that will be like, TWO YEARS AGO. But now, I don't know who you are anymore.

Do you remember? We argued at the beginning of the year 2009, just because of a, well I don't wanna say this but, a b!tch. Yea, a b!tch. Still, you came and talk to me. You asked me to let things between us to be how they were before. Even though both of you were together, you didn't ignore me or forget me. I love that *YOU*.

Then, she broke up with you. And you came to me, telling me how broken hearted you were. After all the "blaming-me-for-hurting-her-when-i-was-the-one-who-got-hurt" thingy, yet I still did not turn away. It was because I couldn't bear it, seeing you being hurt so badly.

During that time, I was on a school trip. I remember I told you that I wasn't feeling well. You told me to take care of myself. Not to fall sick. You cared, and I love that *YOU*.

One night, I had an argument with my ex, and I was really sad. I stayed up till 2 or 3 something in the morning, cried so badly. Then, I texted you. You weren't asleep, you replied. You comforted me. And you knew that you're the one I always looked for when I had problems.

Do you realize that last time, you won't reply me saying,

"Busy now. Tata"

But now, our conversation always end like this. Few days ago, I messaged you. Our *CONVERSATION*, didn't even last for ten minutes.

You changed a lot. I don't know whether you changed because of joining band, or because you broke up with my best friend. I couldn't even talk to you, without getting pissed off. I couldn't tell you my problems, or chat with you like how we used to.

It got even worst after you found your NEW PET. WE DON'T EVEN TALK TO EACH OTHER NOW. NOT EVEN SAYING HI. I don't think that you can even remember that I exist. I tried, I TRIED, and I TRIED, talking to you. But, it didn't work at all.
And, you're being like you are your seniors' pet.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? You flirt with other girls when you're already having a girlfriend. You talk dirty with other girls, and you won't care who they are. Stop doing all these, please. This is not you. Stop acting like you're a kid, its just making you looking like a FOOL. And you dare to call me SIS. HA HA HA. SO FUNNY. Imma say it now that I don't have a GODBRO like you.
And when she breaks up with you, don't come to me. I WON'T CARE, you FT.

GOSH, that's all I wanna say.

Dead dead dead :D

2010-05-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

I know...i know. I haven't been updating my blog since ages ago. You don't have to tell me that cause I know.

I'm lazy and kinda busy to update it. So many stuffs happened, as usual. And I just don't know where to start.

Let's start with . . .

Time is passing toooooooo fast. Way TOOOOOOOOO fast. And let's start with something that I don't wanna talk about...but still.

One minute ago I was with that group of friends, the next minute I'm with another.
What I meant was, I found a group of friends who actually treat me like their friend.
Compared to the old one, who treated me like a tool.

And...my "NEW" group of friend, aka my fellow DEFORMERS, I LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS.

It might sound like you guys are the substitutes, but no. Seriously, my world is kinda different already after mixing with you guys. Onlining every night at a specific time, having a group chat, KSS-ing, teasing each other, fighting.

So...here's my DEFORMERS.

D. Butterfly =D
D. Elephant =D
D. Hamster =D
D. Tweety =D
D. Tortoise =D

and D. PANDA =D (that's me)

Weets. ♥♥♥ The feeling of being treated like a friend instead of a tool, is just so awesome.

Hmmm...I went to MYF on Mothers' Day aka Sunday. After so many many many months of not going MYF, I actually felt awkward being there. Everyone were like, strangers to me. And what they talked about that day, were the EXACT things that I wanna listen to. Had discussion then. Played *Husband and Wife* before we started our discussion.
Then after discussion, went to play football and captain ball. :D

Then, I don't know what else to say. Some conflicts happened between two of my friends. I'm happy that both of them are alright now. (: And I'm having some problems too. But, ignore them.

Exam's around the corner. I'm stressed, as usual. It's a super important year, I don't wanna fail in any subject. Goshhh....

And I can't wait till after exam. :D Starwalk. Don't ditch me again guys. :(
And hope my plan will go well...xD

p/s; love you deformers alot.

The Life that God gave US

2010-04-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

This week's event is CF Combined Easter Celebration. MGS + SMI + ACS

:D It was awesome.
*thumbs up*

We had icebreakers, testimony sharing, a short performance and food. Well, I saw a person there which I haven't been seeing since Standard 6, if I'm not mistaken. I bet he recognizes me. But whatever...LOL.

One of the testimony, was about BGR. I'm sure you all know what is that. I've been in a few BGRs before. And ended up pretty badly. (: The testimony was about this girl's best best best friend, and also the person she liked, ignored her for one whole year because of a misunderstanding. Well actually, I can understand how she felt. The pain in her heart and and . . . just u know lar.

Cause I once been through this kind of situation before. Yea, so what? This is nothing compared to the sacrifice that Jesus made for us. He died upon that cross for us. He had been whipped and his flesh was torn. He was NAILED to the cross.

For those who watched the movie, I'm sure you'll totally understand. Yes, that was what she told us. What we've been thru was just a minor cut. Losing our loved ones doesn't mean that we're losing our lives. We still have God.

And, my Science teacher told us stuffs about life too. We were made from the love of our parents.
Without them, we won't be here today. And this apply to the issue that is pretty ~~HOT~~ lately. What's with all those THROWING BABIES INTO THE DUSTBIN? BURYING THEM AT THE BEACH? THROWING THEM INTO THE DRAINS?

Omgoodness. If you've never think of having a baby or holding the responsibility, then why the hell did you even have SEX? Ok so this relates to study.

did not go to school = did not study = do not know anything especially Reproduction = lepak-ing outside = having *TROUBLES* = NOT TAKING RESPONSIBILITY

Okay whatsoever. But seriously, do you people have brains? A BABY, has a life too. Even when it was still a fetus, it has LIFE. And you people killed so many LIVES. They're innocent . . . they did not even get the chance to see this world. There are couples out there that want to baby but they couldn't. And here you are, killing babies.

This is just so heartless. And, I feel sorry for the things that I've done in the past. I needa learn to appreciate my life more. The life given by God. I have to love life.
And people, please think before you make any decisions or do anything.
One mistake may lead to bigger ones.

And teenagers, appreciate your lives and do not do anything stupid.

Left Outs

2010-04-17T23:57:00.006+08:00

The biggest event of the year that happened in this month of April.

*drumrolls*

MGS's 2010 PESTA RIA!

Of course I went. DUHHH, I'm a MGSian, compulsory to attend.
Anyways, I was supposed to update bout this event last week but I didn't cause I had other stuffs in mind. But whatever, I'm updating bout it now, right? :P

Being a MGSian, it's not easy. Especially on some special events. We gotta WORK, baby. WORK.
As you know, I'm a Form Three student. And F3 were assigned to have game stalls together with F5. Games aren't easy.
Our class came out with three different games.

The duck game aka Quackie Quacky Quack. The name's figured out by me of course. LOL. Earned the most I think.

Darts. Made up of glitter. Name, DOT-A-DART.
Guys, it's not DOTA-DART. LOL!

Ping Pong. :) The hardest game among the three games. Ping Pong Bum Bum's the name. xD

And I did all those posters for the games. (: With the help of my buddies, Syasya, Suhaila, Amelia and Nalia.

Besides having game stalls, we had an additional tattoo booth. (:

And tattoos that me and Suhaila drew. No tracing, believe it.

There's more of it. But few are enough. HEES. One more person to thank, YANG AMIRA!!! <3
She helped me a lot too.

My shift on that day was from 10-11 A.M. But I worked from 9-11. I didn't take my breakfast.
After eleven, I went to cari my babe, ZHEN MIN! And the rest of the day, we had fun. :)

Walked with Jirix, Han Keat(ASSHOLE) and Isis and of course Zhen. Finally gave him his present. And of course, he likes it.
Overall, it was quite fun. But, FunHouse totally sucked. Wasted five bucks for it. Went it, did nothing, kena kicked out. WTH.

Anyways, a few pics for u guys to enjoy.

That's all peeps. (: HOPE ALL THOSE WHO WENT FOR PESTA RIA ENJOYED THAT DAY!

Heartbreaker

2010-04-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

Ok whatsoever. Just screw it. I'm having hallucination problem. Whatever.
I don't wanna talk about Pesta Ria in this post. (:

~~that'll be later~~

Darn, I've no idea how did I effin love you for two freakin years. How the hell did that happen?
I've never freakin love someone this long. Gosh I'M STUPID.
Again and again I told my heart to move you out and empty that space that you had occupied two years back.
Everything should have been OVER since two years ago. Why couldn't I just effin let go of you?
Can't I just simply forget you? What's so good about you? What did you do to me????

Seven things I love about you;

you're good
you've always been there for me
you never left
your voice
your silly-ness
the way u care for me
the way u worry about me

Gosh . . .

WAKE UP CHARLOTTE ANN! Don't wait any longer. There's no use. It's plain useless. Knock your own head and WAKE UP.

I don't understand my love for you. Is it just plain brother and sister love? Or is it a really incredibly HUGE crush?
Ever since I first met you, the first time you talked to me, I just couldn't stop thinking about you.
That very moment, just got stuck in my head. It keeps on replaying. No matter how many times I try to delete it, it won't go away.

Tell me what can I do. How can I win your heart. How can I be the girl that you desire. I swear I won't hurt you. I'll love you...like I always do. I'll care for you . . . I'd do anything just to be your girl.

But right now, it's enough to know that you do care about me. And we're finally talking like how we used to. I don't have to struggle to make our conversations alive. There's just one thing...one question.

I told you that everyone I've loved, even my bffs...each and every one of them just keep stepping into my life and leaving footprints behind. They come and they go. And you told me that you won't leave, it's just that you can't be there every single minute. You told me to trust you. But, can I really trust you?

Can I? . . .

DUNGU (: happybirthday

2010-04-02T00:00:00.003+08:00

H A P P Y F I F T E E N T H B I R T H D A Y

L E E H A N K E A T aka ~~D U N G U !~~

Whees. Why am I so happy? LOL! I don't know. :D
He said I'm no the first one who wished him. ): Yerrr . . .
Anyways, I'm unable to prepare his present due to some problems. And I'll be seeing him in 11 hours time I think. Gosh.

Ahh whatever. Update just to wish him.
Btw, thanks for everything. :D

iheartsyou (;

CUPCAKES (;

2010-03-27T23:55:00.004+08:00

GUESS WHAT? I've made cupcakes! Wheees~
CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES.
Well, I made 'em together with WengYue aka tiny poop aka my junior, and my sister!

Woots! Those are some of the pictures. All the pictures are in my Facebook, 'blahblahblah' album. Those of you who has added me in FB can take a look. :D
The process of making cupcakes are fun and awesome. Hehe. We made a mess. The kitchen was in a horrible terrible mess. But luckily we didn't burn the kitchen. LMAO.

It was my first time making cupcakes, and of course, I succeed! Those cupcakes I made were for my ex foster sister. And WengYue, for her *AHEM*.

*cough cough*

And remember I said I wanna make cupcakes for someone in my previous post? (: I'm gonna make again for that someone. But now, I've no idea whether its worth for me to do it or not. Sighs. Never mind.

I had a blast that day. I was totally tired after making those cupcakes. Haha.
Hmmm . . .

Comments from people who have tasted 'em ;

nice, awesome, hou sek. LOL!

WHEEES! THANKYOU PEEPS.
Love ya all. :D

New Layout!

2010-03-14T10:07:00.002+08:00

First of all . . .

TEST IS OVER! BOO ME. SCREWED ALMOST EVERY PAPER. (:

~~...especially geography...~~

Darn ~~hamdan~~. Set the paper so darn hard.

One week holiday is here. But...but...!!! We've got one week of holiday's homework.
): THEY'RE TORTURING US. Should I follow the schedule fixed by the teachers? Or should I change the schedule abit? GAH WHATEVER.

As you can see, I changed my blog skin. I hope this is nicer. I screwed up everything before I really got this one done. I was trying to change it to HTML but I had to edit the codes.
So I decided to stick with XML. (: And used HTML blog skin on my other blog.

I'm learning how to create my own blog skin. But before that, needa recognize those HTML codes first. (:

Edited the skin I'm using for my private blog. Still not really done yet. 75% only. Still left the 'disable right click' function and ermm..the cursor thingy. Hope I can get it done.

Somehow, I prefer using HTML. It's kinda fun editing the codes by myself. Hahaha. (:
Yet, it makes my head go realllllllly dizzy.

So, hope the current layout I'm using is nicer lar.

I'll upload pictures I took during those two days of test. (:

CIAOS PEEPS.

-starving!needa eat-

Shit. Darn it.

2010-03-12T00:12:00.002+08:00

I SCREWED MY BLOG.
WHAT AM I GONNA DO NOW?
DARN

L E A R N !

2010-03-07T00:46:00.003+08:00

I WANNA LEARN HOW TO MAKE CUPCAKES! ♥

. . . for a special someone . . .

Don't wanna reveal the identity YET.

Chocolate cupcakes, with rainbow rice and chocolate chips. And, with SMILEY. (=
Those in the pictures below are nicer hor??

ilovethissomeonesomuch! =D

HEEES!!

Okay, whatever. LOL.
So, today was MGS's 63rd Sports Day. GIRLS' BRIGADE LOST IN THE MARCHING COMPETITION.
SO DID GIRL GUIDES.

~~WTH.~~

BLAAAAH. I was darn nervous. Luckily I didn't screw up. Reached school quite early this morning. Then when I was done wearing my 'YL stuffs', I LOST MY NAME TAG. Crap.
Thank goodness Jean Li found it. Our marching was niceeeee!! Still, we lost.

I didn't take any pictures. Bag was locked in the Bio Lab. Got it back after marching was over.
School band was awesome, awesome and AWESOME.

I LOVE POKER FACE. LOL! Darn yeng weh.

Nothing much to blog about. Monthly test is on next Wed and Thurs. I am so gonna flunk all my subjects. GAHHHH. Then after that, HOLIDAYS.

YAY! Badminton, badminton, badminton. :D I wanna see...that 'someone'! Yerrr, someone organize lar. I don't wanna be the organizer. Very kesian wan.
Anyways, talk about that later.
Cuz right now, I needa sleep.

"YOU"...yes "YOU", wait for my cupcakes. :P

gosh...iwantyou.♥

♥

2010-02-28T00:40:00.004+08:00

Love him, love her.

Love me, love you.

Love this, love that.

Love here, love forever.

Smallie ♥ DD.
DD ♥ Kiki.
Kiki ♥ Cory and DD.
Cory ♥ Kiki.

Gahh, ignore the craps above. :D
I'm just too bored and couldn't sleep. It feels like I'm waiting for something, or someone perhaps. xD

I don't know.

I'M HAVING PROBLEM TRANSLATING MY ESSAY INTO MALAY!
Someone be my translator please.

One question that I don't get it. Why am I slacking when exam is coming?
Its like, a week before exam and I'm ONLINING. What the crap. (:
I don't wanna flunk my exam. No shit. Especially Maths. Darn.

People, do u guys know the difference between simple and childish? Cause I don't really get the meaning of childish. Am I childish?

Someone please tell me.

Plus, I couldn't figure out what and where's the good side of me. SOMEONE TELL ME THIS AS WELL. (:

I don't know what to write actually. There are too many stuffs that I cannot expose them here.
But of course, they're in FACEBOOK. If you're smart enough, you can figure it out that I exposed them in what way.

Nowadays, I realize that I spend half an hour in class writing some personal stuffs. Its kinda like, a story. Everyday-story. She tells me this, he tells me that. Combine them together, use stupid names...and ta-da. There goes my story. I just can't help it. I don't like keeping all those stuffs in my mind. MY MIND IS ALREADY CRAMPED!

Helllooo? I know I'm a good listener. *CHEH, perasan.* =P But...but...let me rest for some moment lar. I've got my studies to think of. I don't wanna let my mind slip away. You know, neglect my studies and think of *rubbish* stuffs. You guys know what I mean lar.

But then there's this one person that I really wanna listen to his problem and try my best to help him. Well, at last he told me his problem. I can't help much, since I can't give what he needs. Or should I say, he wouldn't accept it. This person knows who he is.

Guess I'll stop here. THAT 'SOMEONE' is on already. =D Sweeeeeeeeeet.

GOODBYE.

JJ Outing; Worse Ever?

2010-02-19T23:38:00.006+08:00

First of all, I wanna wish Lim Pui Yee Happy Birthday! :D
And, Lee Weng Phong, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! (:

Okay, this time outing was like, 1 over 10 on the rating scale.
Saw a lot of familiar faces in JJ. Saw Seng Hoo and his friends. Wing Yee and her friends. Even saw my cousin brother. The rest all i know.

Here's the thing;

I was supposed to go with PERSON A and PERSON B but these two fellas kinda like, FFK me. PERSON A at least watched a movie with me. We watched True Legend. Jay Chou looked fantastic in that movie. It was too violent for me.

The gang...

Frederick the organizer...and his gang. Jascinta my DEAR with Angel and Yin Li while Chi Yan and the rest. These three 'GANGS' watched the errr...72 Tenants of Prosperity, I think.

PERSON B FFK-ED ME! To be honest, I WAS A BIT MAD. After movie lagi teruk. Whole day ruined by one person. And that person is neither PERSON A nor PERSON B. Its another person.

I knew it wouldn't be a good day. SUCKED. Whole day emo only. I SMILED JUST FOR THE SAKE OF JAS.

Damn it. Next time you people better not tell me anything, I repeat, ANYTHING that you guys won't do it. It's already the third time you guys did this. Cakap will ACCOMPANY me, in the end? Accompanied your own ass. Starwalk also the same, today also kena twice.

Sorry, I'm really angry and upset.

Anyways, we went to Pizza Hut to celebrate Phong's birthday. Bought him a cake. 16 of us were there. Only FOUR girls. ;)

This fella up there is not Phong, don't worry. He's not that YONG SUI!!

Just the guys???

Here are the girls. LOL.

Overall I DID NOT enjoy myself much. I was tired and sleepy, mad and moody, upset and feeling confused.

I wanted to just leave or get up to the roof and just be alone. Or join Ben and the others go 'ta kei'.

Darn it...hate this. One last thing, please don't ever promise me anything.
Promise this and promise that, in the end, it's all nothing but shit.

Don't tell me stuffs that you cannot do it.
I'd rather be alone from the starting than being LEFT alone HALFWAY.

Chinese New Year and Valentine

2010-02-12T13:09:00.003+08:00

This is the time we get more $$ and get to eat good food!
But...most of all...HOLIDAYS! One week...ONE WEEK! OMG, I'm soooo excited.

Before that, let me tell you guys a bit of what happened the past few weeks.

Sukantara is already over. My marks is only 3/6. Failed long jump. ):
Saringan i don't know about it.
Marching still sucks...I meant the whole contingent. And basically, we only have around 4 or 5 practices left!

Victoria house is leading, followed by Cavel. And then Nightingale and Crossby. If i'm not mistaken.
Sports Day is on the 6th of March. So, GO NIGHTINGALE! (:

Here's some info about MGS's Pesta Ria 2010;

Its on the 10th of APRIL. Saturday.
9.00 a.m.-3.oo p.m.
Coupons are RM10 per booklet.

Remember to come. :P AND BUY THOSE COUPONS FROM ME! LOL!

Anyways, I AM SO SICK OF BEING IN ______!
They just couldn't cooperate for even a minor thing. Gosh. And that *girl*, is very very very very menyampah.

Anyways, CNY is here so I don't wanna talk about the bad things. I'll be going to KL tomorrow. WHOOTS! Until Wednesday.

WOOHOO, Sunday Valentine horr...but sadly, I don't have any special one to celebrate with. ;)
It doesn't matter.
AND FRIDAY! HANGOUT!
I miss my GOR lar...=D Get to see him on Friday and get my ang pau. Bwahahahaha.
He won't read this, nevermind. LOL.

So, I guess that's all people.

GONG XI FA CAI and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
Don't forget my ANG PAU! :P
Oh and, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.

OMG WTH WTF WTC.

2010-01-30T15:08:00.003+08:00

Best picture ever. Gosh, I miss kitty. RIP! :(

Random title.

I GOT A HELL LOT DARKER. OMG.

Gosh, good luck hasn't been siding me lately.
My cat died. Stupid driver.
My homework/note book got confiscated because of my friend.
A hell lots of homework to do.
Stay...stay...stay back. GOSH!

Friday's Merentas Desa was totally lame. Instead of going out of the school, we did it in the school compound. If it wasn't the last day of January, I would have totally skipped school.
Monday injection arh. Aiyo.

*runs away*

MGS's Pesta Ria is on the 10th of April. So people, REMEMBER TO COME! :P
Form 3 setting up game stalls. Unfortunately, there' won't be any haunted houses this year. So yea, pray that we'll come out with something better and much more exciting.

To be honest, I dislike my desk mate. Charroo, i gotta admit that you're lots better than her.
I hate Tuesday. Its the worse day of the week. Almost every subjects are on Tuesday. There's a lot of homework on Tuesday. Nightingale's practice is on Tuesday. Science tuition is on Tuesday.
So, I can only start doing my homework at 9.00 p.m. on Tuesday. Ain't it just awesome?

Anyways, I am seriously looking forward to CNY HOLIDAYS. Even though its just one week, but its good enough. Hangouts. =) Yet, tuition classes.

Goodbye for now...

Dead Girl♥

2010-01-22T14:25:00.002+08:00

I can still hear my own breathing.
I can still feel my heart beating.

YES, I SURVIVED THE THIRD WEEK.

I'll stay back in school for practice practically for the whole week.

And here's the results of it;

I got darker in just one day time
My arms hurt
My legs hurts A LOT
I'm not having enough sleep
SERIOUSLY EXHAUSTED
Couldn't really finish my homework

Last but not least, I AM ~~HALF DEAD.~~
I woke up in the morning, and immediately my brain received messages from parts of my body saying,

"YOU'RE EXHAUSTED! YOU NEED SLEEP! DON'T GO TO SCHOOL!!!"

Useless la. Tomorrow got school somemore. Saturday arh. SATURDAY!
And I gotta rush for tuition straight after school. Sad case.
Wrong decision I made. Marching practices kill. Tuition classes kill. I need nescafe, more and more nescafe.
And in the end of the day, I'll collapse. =)

-sayonara-

Anyways, I think my tuition teacher will start teaching 'REPRODUCTION' next Tuesday.

*laughs*

I am seriously looking forward to what will happen. LOL. Its actually nothing to me. :P

My mathematics teacher really is trying to kill me. Suddenly she gave me a job to do. And it has to be done next week, by using computer somemore. And I'm practically using the comp for like, only 30 minutes. And its not PER DAY! Geez...seriously no comments.

And now, I shall get back into my coffin! =P

-what will i answer?-

Survival...

2010-01-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

r a i n d r o p s k e e p f a l l i n g

...on my head...

It rained on the first day of school. =)
And I'm back to Ori, which is kinda sad. =( I'm still trying to get used to it.

First day, first morning...
I sat there, reminiscing
My friends, my best pal,
They're not here with me now...

Yeah, I'm sad, yet I'm happy.

Going to school by bus sucks to the max. I don't like it at all.

~~S-U-C-K-S~~

Anyways, you must be wondering why am I here blogging, whereas there's school tomorrow and I have to wake up at 5.15 A.M!
I'm starting to feel...stress. I need someone to talk to. But, there's just no one that I could turn to.

Form 3 life isn't good. It isn't wonderful at all. I can hardly breath now...and its just the 2nd week of the first month.
Sports practice started. Nightingale is on Tuesday. And I've got tuition straight away after I get home.
And there's even tuition and SATURDAY and SUNDAY!

Its not that I'm not used to it. Its just that, out of a sudden I just feel so tired of everything. Every single thing.

Every time when I think of PMR, I just feel like DYING. I desperately want it to end fast. Thinking of all those projects projects. Project 20...where you have to do 20 exercises for EACH subject.

Example; History objective, 60 questions per paper. 60 x 20 = 1200 questions.

Gosh, and conquer Geography. Damn I dislike Geography. The teacher makes me feel like sleeping every time during Geo lesson.
Geez...I seriously don't know what to say now. I HAVE GOTTA SURVIVE!

TILL THE END OF PMR!

...and you shall visit me at my grave then...

End of me complaining about school now.

Monday night, 11.01.2010, I received a really really really shocking news. My gor broke up with my BFF.

You couldn't imagine, and wouldn't know how I react.
She cried, like DUH.
He acts like nothing happened. WTF.

Unbelievable right? I know...
No, I don't know...I don't know a single thing. I don't know whether the reasons he told me are true or not. The reasons he broke up with her. Cause there's just this feeling inside me, telling me that he's hiding something. AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS IT!

It feels like I'm in pain too. Seeing my BFF being hurt like that. Knowing that she's suffering every night. I've no idea why. I felt so disappointed with him. I was ANGRY at him. I wanted to STRANGLE him, as if I'm the one he dumped.

Maybe its just...just that she's really my BFF. And she had been hurt, badly.

The bond between a true friendship...

-to be continued-...

H A P P Y 2 0 1 0

2010-01-01T00:49:00.010+08:00

...not 2012...

Yes peeps, it's a new year. Like what people always say, a new year, a new beginning.
So, FORGET THE OLD, WELCOME THE NEW. =D

I'm missin 2 0 0 9, that's true.
But, I'm looking forward to what will happen in 2 0 1 0 too.

2 0 0 9 had been a really ~~hectic~~ year. All that of being the first-class student, studies, meeting new friends, going out, conflicts in friendships...sinking friendships. I really couldn't find any words to describe 'em. I've broken some hearts, and I got mine broken too.

I've done pretty badly in my exams. I know that I've disappoint my family. And I'm sorry.
I promise I'll study REALLY HARD to PMR this year. A promise is a promise. Once it had been made, one cannot break it.

I've learned quite a lot of stuffs from this s o m e o n e. I don't wanna mention the name.

I've learned to be strong, and not to give up.
Love, and not ask to be loved.
Give, and not ask for anything in return.
Share the happiness and joy...

Both of my bestfriend are finally together, after going through all those obstacles.
One of them is now my Best Girlfriend Ever, and the other one is now officially my brother from another motherfather.

Introducing my BGR aka Jascinta. =D
I love her a lot, and i will always love her. She's been there for me, through all the bad times, and also the good times. Thanks darling.

I couldn't have survived without my brother, Frederick Lee.
-the dungu-

He's the one I always turn to whenever I'm facing some problems.
And he's always there. My ah gor...=D Thanks and iloveyou. :P

There goes the lovebirds. May u two stay happily forever. =)

The s o m e o n e, I wanna thank him a lot too. Although he had hurt me, brought tears to my eyes and sadness to my life. Still, he had finally made me able to learn how to let go.

And those I didn't mention here, don't worry. You guys are stored in my heart.
End of the story of people whom I wanna thank.

Wait....!! It's not the end of this post, YET.

Holidays were awesome. I finally attended youth camp. I went to church. Met new friends. Knew more about God.
Christmas was wonderful. Especially during caroling nights, there's not sadness, but only laughter and happiness.

And at the end of the day, the one and only person that I truly wanna give thanks to, is God.
He gave me this life. This wonderful life of mine. What else can I ask for? I wouldn't ask for anything more. All I want is just my family and friends. Without them, I wouldn't be here, typing out this post.

Without God, I wouldn't be what I am today.
All praises to the Lord. Amen.

H A P P Y N E W Y E A R EVERYONE.

Look forward to what is ahead,
Not look behind where everything is dead,
Life is short so enjoy it,
And time doesn't wait, so don't hesitate.

Where Life Meets It's End

2009-12-30T21:37:00.002+08:00

I received a shocking news when I woke up. My friend's Daddy passed away due to a heart attack.
I couldn't believe what I read in the message that my Gor sent me. It was just, so shocking and hard to believe.

Condolences to Jirix. I hope he's fine.
I wish we could do something for him. But I realized that all I can do is pray for him and his family.

Its really a bad thing to happen. Especially when New Year is just one day away. He still has to sit for PMR. Such thing will really give a big impact on him, no matter how strong he is.

Still, life is life. It has to meet it's end. I just hope that he will stay strong and move on with life.

Don't worry Jirix, you still have us, your friends.

MYF CAMP '09 DAY THREE and FOUR

2009-12-23T16:05:00.007+08:00

Day three=A W E S O M E .
We had WATER GAMES. Its actually station games, but we got WET, so yea.
CSO did WELL! Oh before the game started, I played basketball with u-know-who lar, under the freakin HOT HOT HOT sun! And I won him! BLEKKK.

We got soooo WET, and after it ended, we went and played captain ball. =D Yes, with our wet wet outfits. And I STUNK.

At night, we had Christmas Celebration.

Agencies' Flags. =D
Left, my feet. The result of playing basketball under the hot sun with slippers on.

Timothy~=D
Elves and reindeers.
Eliminated ones. Included me...=D

Wheees~our own fun time. TRUTH AND DARE.
I kena once...damn. They made me tell the truth...who's the nicest guy among all the guys who were there playing. And u guys know who i picked lar...

=D
CHRISTOPHER proposing to LI XIN! WOOOHOOOO.

Princess and the FrogS.
Nighttime...SNACKS!

Day Four =D I wasn't taking pics of their butts...

PHILEMON aka FILAMEN. =D

And notice their lips..=D The two new cool EDWARD CULLEN.

And and and...XTOPHER...no lar, its CHRISTOPHER. :P Adam Lambert.
We had our group photos taken before we left. I was dead tired at the end of the camp.
But I've learned a lot of things.

-I've learned that sometimes, we can't do things alone.-

-And that God is always here with us...no matter what are we doing or where are we... -

-Last but not least, I've made new friends. :P-

ALL THANK TO GOD.

MYF Camp '09 DAY TWO

2009-12-22T23:02:00.007+08:00

OKAY, so second day! =P As usual, breakfast, session then cell time. Free time, lunch and GAMES!

The first game was the worse. :( For me lar. Cause it involved B A L L O O N S. And my friends, you know I'm scared of balloons. =D
So I gave up on the second round. Took my camera out, and TA-DA! Pictures!

BEEEEEEEEEEEEN! I want BASKETBALL!

And you still owe me a drink!

SNATCHHHH! Don't pop those balloons!

Joshua sat till so YENG.

Merry-go-round...

Then....

We had our MOVIE TRAILERS. To be exact, we each got one movie, and an object. So our group aka CSO, got NEW MOON! Yes, the oh-so-hot JACOB BLACK AND EDWARD CULLEN.
And also a can of BEANs. Overall, everything went quite well. We had our practices. And erm, yea, we got 15/20. =D

Here's the role; Xiu Ming-EDWARD
Nicole-BELLA
Jason-JACOB
Wen En-ALICE
Henry-JASPER
Nat, Jeff and Kenneth as the Volturi
And me, the narrator!

I LOVE JASON's LINE; I'm JACOB BLACK, I'm strong i'm tough and I have six packs!

The Incredibles. Damn I love the way Emanuel laughed. =D

Above; Lord of the GIANT SMARTIES.

KUNGFU PANDA. Not exactly KungFu Panda. LOL

WOOOHOOO! TRANSFORMERS WEH!

HAWT MIKAELA...it was Audrey actually.

MATRIX!! That's SEAN MARK.

HSM worrrrrrr.

Last but not least, SPIDERMAN. But all I see is CHRISTOPHER AKA ADAM LAMBERT! =D

There goes my second day. At night we had INGLORIOUS MAFIA. Damn weh, I hurt my leg while I was playing basketball during free time. Then during the game, had to walk for nearly two whole hours. LOL. Anyways, it was fun. =D DON MARCELLO made us put FLOUR on our face. And campers, I bet you know who is DON MARCELLO.

And...that's all baby! =D

-basketball was awesome-

MYF Youth Camp Day One

2009-12-18T00:01:00.008+08:00

Before that, i went to sleepover at Li Xin aka PWIGG's house. Had so much fun *LESBO-ING* there. LOL. Just KIDDING. We webcamed with CXL and his friends. Actually, I went to her house in the morning. Then we went for caroling practice together. And after that I waited for her till 5 p.m.

What a good friend I am...LOL. *perasan*

Anyways, here goes...

14.12.2009

FIRST DAY! =) Left CGMC in the morning. Bryan Cheng, our Bus A Leader. =)
Sat with Kar Khei. The journey was short. And GAYNESS happened in the bus.

BRYAN...=D

Girls catwalking...LOL

So damn funny lar. Especially Nicholas's walk. LOL! And the flying kiss.

Reached there, then checked in to our rooms. Why must girls suffer? Our rooms were at the 4th floor, HIGHEST floor. While the guys' rooms were at the 2nd and 3rd. Bad lar wei.
Was darn hot there, and a lot of flies! Lunch was better than what I expected.

Later, went to the hall. We had to climb 6 flights of stairs. =) There, we broke into our agency groups. And what was my agency??

Of course, the one and only...

*drum rolls*

C S O ! ! !

Apa itu CSO? Counter Strike Online? LOL. Of course no. CSO stands for Christ Sent Organization. CSO RAWKS. Natasha was our leader. We had some problems at first. Communication problems, but then everything went well the second day.

After that, we had our break time. I think I went to play captain ball, for the very first time.
At night, we had our first session; What Would Jesus Desire? I feel extremely guilty...cause I was quite sleepy throughout the whole session. After session was supper, if I'm not mistaken. I skipped, was too tired. Slept quite early.

BTW, I seriously DISLIKE the bed. I've hit my head for FIVE damn times. GAHH.

-WWJD-

What Christmas Means to ME

2009-12-13T01:26:00.002+08:00

Here's how my testimony goes...

To be honest, I didn't really know what Christmas actually meant to me. I used to think of Santa Claus, but I was wrong. Christmas is not about getting more toys. Christmas is not about going on the Polar Express and meeting Santa.

Christmas to me is about spending time with the one you love, and those who love you. It's about reunion. Every year during Christmas, family and friends gather together. Besides, it also mean that a day without worries but laughter and fun.

It's the time to forget all our worries and hatred. Christmas is about giving, sharing, caring and loving too. Helping those who are in need without asking for anything in return. But the most important is, Christmas is about giving thanks to the LORD. For He had sacrificed Himself on the cross for us. It's a day to remember our Savior's birth.

It's the time to learn how to be selfless. So, remember that Christmas is NOT about getting more toys and meeting SANTA. It is about the birth of Jesus Christ, our Lord, our Savior.

-off to bed-

OVER-CARING

2009-12-12T18:15:00.004+08:00

My blog will be DEAD for the next 5 days.
CAMPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
Wheeees~I feel excited. Not really that excited lar. =D

Went for a haircut today. Now my hair's kinda short.

About the camp, I don't really know what to pack. I meant, should I bring along my MP3?
And camera? I feel like I wanna snap some pictures during the camp. So that I can post it here and in FB.

Oh gahhhhhhhhhhh! I haven't really FINISH preparing my TESTIMONY yet. I can't think of what else to write.

What Christmas MEANS to ME.

PWIGGGGGGGGG, what you wrote??????

Sorry Shammi, don't think I'll be going for the last class gathering. T_T

*teary eyes*

I'm missing you guys so freakin much!! SIGH. SIGH. SIGH.

Okay so lets get back to my post title.

GAHHHHHH!! I don't effin care who's gonna read this. My uncle, my mom, my sis or whatsoever!

HELLOOOOOOO, i'm not 3years old kid. I'm 14, F-O-U-R-T-E-E-N.
Look, I'm not trying to complain or what lar. But, is there a problem going out with friends? Or visiting a friend's house? Or even going for BADMINTON?

I know how to take care of myself lar. I know who's the good ones and the bad ones. Its not the first time I hangout with them. GOSHHH! I can't tahan already.
My grandma always scare I kena RAPED or KIDNAPPED by my guy FRIENDS.
Afraid that they'll BERPAKAT. Geez...

What in the world...I never go kbox with 'em or whatever. I only go for movies and shopping. AND GO TO CHURCH!!! THAT's THE BIGGEST PROBLEM THAT I DISLIKE.
WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH GOING TO CHURCH?

If they don't effin trust my friends, why don't they try to trust GOD?

~~pergicamppunmaucakap.~~

Then why the heck still want me to go Singapore and study? Since they're so afraid.
I might just as well stay at HOME all the time. So that they know that I'm SAFE and SOUND.
Then what about going for tuitions huh? Its the same right, there are guys there too. They might berpakat with others and do something bad to me too.

Oh, and SCHOOL too!

Geez, I'm sorry if I hurt one of your aka my family members feelings. But, I really really really cannot stand this anymore.
I do appreciate your love and care for me.
But caring hurts, and sometimes, OVER-CARING won't do any good.

I might look childish on the outside to you guys. I might act childish. But on the inside I'm NOT. I know how to think, ok? I've got brains.
I bet you guys don't even know what I think all the time. Only know how to say that I'm thinking of computer games, hanging out with friends and boyfriends.

WRONG! =D

WHATEVER lar.

I'm growing up already. I'll have my own life soon. I won't forever be your little girl, MOM and GRANDMA. I'll leave, SOMEDAY.

I just want you guys to know that I appreciate every single thing that you guys did. And I LOVE YOU.

So, please just don't worry about me too much.

feels like crying...

Failure! -cookiebaker-

2009-12-08T15:48:00.005+08:00

PINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNK is gone!
Welcome black and white. :P

I love my new layout. What you guys think about it?
I've been using pink pink and pink layouts all these while. So i thought,

why not change the colour once in a while?

Anyways, give some comments! =D

Last night MATHS tuition killed me. I hate maths. Lines and Angles. GAHHH.
Don't know what INTERIOR stuffs. Suckish.

Youth camp is like, NEXT WEEK! Its my first time and I seriously can't wait to have fun.
I skipped Sunday's caroling practice, and did not pass up my testimony. And i missed the Kampung Games too. :(

Someone asked me to be his PROM DATE. LOL! Too bad I'm not going. So is he. Should I hangout with him? Watch movie or something.
And you know what, I actually told my MOM this. HAHA.

I've been sleeping REAL late these few days. *panda eyes* :(
Been onlining and chatting. If not, texting. I'm in loveeeeeeee with guitars. I wanna learn guitar!!
I prefer acoustic thou'.

So, I don't know when, forgotten, me and my sister tried to bake Butter Cornflake Cookie.
I didn't really know how cause it was my first time. We've got all the ingredients and the instructions.
Everything turned out to be a ~~FAILURE~~. LOL.
We messed up the steps and WA-LA.

Smelled good, tasted AWFUL.

*2 thumbs down*

The second time was a success thou'. With the help of my AUNT. loveya!

I'm gonna bake moreeeeee for CHRISTMAS.

goodbyeeeeee for now.

sleepover at pwigg's house on SUN.
iloveeeeeeguitar
i'minloveeeeee with the HOT guitarist!

prom? LOL

Random Day =)

2009-12-05T16:51:00.003+08:00

4th of Dec; Friday

I shouldn't have slept at 3.00a.m! LOL! I knew i would oversleep the next morning, and yes I DID!
Badminton started at 8.00a.m. and I woke up at 7.55! Amazing,right?
Here's what happened;

I set my alarm at 5.30, 6.00, 6.30 and 7.00 cause I know I couldn't wake up. Hees. When it rang at 7.00, I just shut it and went back to sleep. Then suddenly my phone rang and I answered. It was Ben, and I went,

~~OMG what time is it now? WTC I overslept!~~

LOL! My first time being late. =D

Oh btw, the so called badminton became tennis. We went to the tennis court and yea, bad stuffs happened.
First, the stupid ball hit my head. Then, it hit my hand and BOOM! My phone fell!!!!!!!!
WTH.

Anyways, after badminton, went to Ben's house.

Ben, Marcus, Nicholas, Jo's bro, Jo, Jo mun, Kar Khei, Li Xin and ME!

Watched Jennifer's Body. Jo Ann tersilap cakap. She said CHARLOTTE's BODY! LOL!
Then the guys were playing PS2. Metal Slug. HAHA. Had pizza. I slept awhile there. It was darn cold inside. Lol.

Oh, one more thing...i thought my room's messy enough. But see see, his room is MUCH MORE messier than mine. HOHO.

I like that, the guitar. =) and his bedsheet. TEDDY!!

Hmmm...went home at 5.00. And erm, I don't think I wanna ride a motorcycle anymore.
Few of you guys know why. Hehe.

P/S; Ben, my mom said that ur quite LENGCHAI
my uncle said that ur like, sor sor dei....

Stupid Phonecall

2009-12-04T02:53:00.009+08:00

So, I followed my uncle to the pet shop again. This time, get to play with a really cute TOY POODLE!
She's black in colour. And her fur is like, so soft and nice to touch. Curly curly.

Oh and here's a funny phone call. Some unknowns.
Here goes the conversation...

Phone rings...(taylor swift's fifteen ringtone)

Me: (answered) Hello? Hello? (impatiently)
Caller(guy): Lu kat mana ni? (in BM)
Me: HUH? Who the heck are you? Whatever....(hung up)
Caller(guy): calls again...
Me: did not answer....

I was rude, wasn't I? That was what my sister told me. LOL!
But who the heck cares? I don't even know who is that fella.

Oh, like I said, I went to the pet shop in Menglembu. So, here's some pictures of the cute toy poodle and also Angel. =)

Cute~both of them were playing together. =D

Angel's new shirt.
Making her look *man*

Cutie being punished. HAHA!

Angel trying to get her. =D

That's all. Oh wait...

-MISSING DOGGIE!-

The name's Maybo.

:( Cute right? But she's missing. If u guys see her anywhere, just call the number above.
Here; 012-5162110 and 012-5051129

Ice-cream Freak!

2009-12-02T23:42:00.013+08:00

Sooooo, my uncle came back from Singapore!
Which means...time for some fun.
Anyways, Tuesday night's Science tuition was fun actually.
The teacher actually teaches in Cantonese. All of the students were Chinese, except for me lar.

And and...i miss my darling so much!
Jas.....♥

Well, since my uncle came back, we went to Crazy Ice-cream House for dinner yesterday.
My favorite part is their ice-cream. Hees. The first time I went, I finished the whole 3 scoop of ice-cream by myself! This time too....

Gahhhh...fattening!

Anyways, let the pictures do the talking.

-People-

-Drinks-

My apple juice...

-FOOD-

Aunt's ham and sausage

Cousin bro's fish n chips

Sis's spaghetti

Mine; crabstick

-The....ice-cream!-

MINE! Chocolate, chocolate ripple and yam! Fantastic!

The four ice-cream. Hees.

Thats it.
Badminton tomorrow morning.
Then to Ben's house? =D

I don't know yet. Kar Khei said more people more fun. So, I might be going, with Li Xin after badminton.

And, I just loveeeeeeeeeeee chatting with LEROY! He's like my, craziest, funniest, weirdest, emo-est friend ever. When I'm upset, he's there to listen. And, the thing I like about him is that he can easily make me laugh! =).

You know, the stuffs and craps he says...they're just so freakin funny.

And, i guess thats all?

gooooodbye peeps.

Crazy Conversation! (must read!)

2009-12-01T00:07:00.004+08:00

Don't worry people! I was just pretending to be SOMEONE! Its not real, the conversation I meant. LOL

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

why are you not talking to me? imissyou

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

can u be my bf back?

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

iloveyou ***

I say:

really arh li xin? i miss you also. Come back to me....

I say:

i love you a lot, my baby. muacks

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

awww

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

i miss your huggies

I say:

baby, i miss being with you too....

I say:

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

dearrrrrrrrrrrrrr

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

come back to me.

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

dont go for *******

I say:

my baby, you know i still love u and want you. I won't go for *******. Ive been waiting for you to come back

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

i tot u gave up on me?

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

and you're not talking to me ady since that day i screwed u up

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

i'm so sorry

I say:

i never did. I was just trying to convince my friends that I gave up on you...so that they won't feel sorry for me

I say:

I was afraid of you...afraid that you'd think that I'm bugging you again

I say:

awww...its okay baby

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

reallly?

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

i'm really sorry

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

cause that time i really hated you

I say:

I should say sorry to you. will u forgive me? I'll change, I promise

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

u promised me

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

but u never change.

I say:

Then i guess its the end. I promised, and i broke it. I'm really sorry baby. I won't, will never, go to u again, or bug you.

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

awwwww

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

u better dont break it again

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

or i swear i will breakup with you

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

and i go cari another bf

I say:

nooo...please! I won't. I promise. =D I love you lots baby. muacks

â™¥ -Li Xin- P W i G G. says:

muacks

100th Post!

2009-11-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

Yeeeeeelooooooooooooowwww PEOPLE!

So, I went for tuition in the morning. Then to Nic's house.
I attended the kids' Xmas party.
Caroling practice, and then Xmas dinner at Bryan's house!

Overall, everything was just AWESOME, except for tuition lar of course.

The Xmas party was actually nice. You know, with those little kids everywhere. Little ANGELS.
It makes you happy just by looking at them, playing and smiling. =)
We sang, we dance, we clapped and cheered. I feel like a KID myself. We even watched a video. Sorta like a movie or something. It was about the TRUE meaning of CHRISTMAS.

Well, do you know what is the true meaning of Christmas? =)

It ended at 5.00 p.m. Filled my stomach, then went for caroling practice.

It was just so ~~OUT OF TUNE!~~ Just one song lar. The O Holy Night, I think. Damn high pitched weh. No jokes. I was having cough. T_T. Couldn't really sing. Oh, SOMEONE asked me to sit with him, and I refused to.

Went to Bryan's house at 6.30p.m, after caroling practice. The dinner was just, awesome.

*thumbs up*

Me, Li Xin, Natasha, Crystal, Jo Ann, Kar Khei, Nic Tan, Ken Xin, Jonathan Khoo, Bryan Lim, Eric, Benjamin Choi, Nicholas Sum and Bryan Cheng!

We had turkey, spaghetti, mashed potato, harsh brown, nuggets, soft drinks, fruit tarts and ice cream? That's a lot ain't it? Hees. After dinner we had some games. My partner for the first game was er...er...Bryan Lim? And for the second game was, Jonathan Khoo?? Okay, I was totally blur, so sorry if I got it wrong.

Gift exchanging. =D. I got Kar Khei's present, which is a, I don't know how to describe it.
Jo Ann got mine. Hope you like it, Jo. Thank You Kar Khei for her present.
Went home at around, 10.40 p.m.

Yups, and now I'm darn tired. It was a really long day.
And now, I'm planning how to celebrate CHRISTMAS with my FAMILY. I told my Mom not to cook chicken chops. I told her to cook spaghetti and stuffs lar. And I want everyone, I repeat, EVERY SINGLE of my family members to be HOME!

That's what I call a PERFECT Christmas. Ooo, talking about that, I haven't prepare my testimony YET. Anyways, I'm gonna shift to a new room soon!

-I'm gonna paint the walls baby pink!-

Agree? Hehe.
My house is actually undergoing renovation now. The kitchen, I meant. So, after everything's done, me, my Mom and sisters are going to clean up the house. Shift everything, maybe re-paint the walls and stairs. Gonna buy new sofa, and maybe TV set.

And...and, I guess that's all? I've still got a lot in mind thou'. But, I don't wanna make this any longer. I've got tuition tomorrow morning! Sucks, right?

Goooooodnight!
oh and this is my 100th post! =)
The real meaning of Christmas?
Is getting the greatest gift of all, Jesus Christ.

-TLisfreakingHAWT!-

-bc knows, I guess-

Obsessed

2009-11-28T01:27:00.002+08:00

Why do I just lie awake and think of you?
I need some sleep
Tomorrow I have things to do

Everytime I close my eyes I see your face
So I try to read
But all I do is lose my place

Am I obsessed with you?
I do my best not to want you
But I do all the time
I do all the time...

I just had to call you up and say hello
I know its 3 a.m.
And I saw you awhile ago
But I still have this aching need to hear your voice
To know you're there
I don't seem to have any choice

Am I obsessed with you?
I do my best not to want you
But I do all the time
Do all the time

Yeah...

I'm so sorry I just had to wake you up
I feel so lonely by myself
Is this the way you feel when you're in love?
Or is this something else?

Yeahhhh....

Am I obsessed with you?
I do my best not to want you
But I do all the time
I want you all the time...

But I do all the time
I want you all the time...
Am I...obsessed with you?

by,
MC

New Moon.Edward Cullen.Jacob Black.

2009-11-27T00:04:00.005+08:00

EDWARD CULLEN! JACOB BLACK! LOL!
So damn freakin awesome! You guys should look at Jacob Black aka Taylor Lautner's HAWT BODY! HAHA. I wish I have a boyfriend like that. LOL.

Anyways, I had to attend tuition. So i was ten minutes late. Thank you Ben for waiting for me.
I was freezing inside the cinema. =). But...but...nevermind.
Gahhh! TAYLOR LAUTNER IS JUST SO HAWT and EWARD CULLEN IS JUST SO SEDUCING!

After movie went to McD. Then, me, Jo Ann, Marcus and I-yin went to PWIGG's house! =D. We watched the oh-so-disgusting-yet-funny ZOHAN!
I didn't want to go home by cab, so I followed Li Xin to church then my grandma picked me up there. Went for supper.
Had curry mee. Damn spicy.

Headed to 7 11. Bought 'tao kae noi'. =). Seaweed.

and toblerone. =). One of my favorite. Hehe.

my pinky socks that I wore.

That's all. Now, I'm talking to the PWIGG about some problem.
I'm gonna go for caroling! Wheeeees~
Right now, I wanna partay! Like you know, you'll have beer and wine and stuffs. Dance. Like in disco or pub. LOL.
I don't mind having sleepovers. =)
Gonna call the PWIGG now.

-I ain't a fighter, i'm not gonna fight-
-I don't wanna wait, no no-

I ♥ Jesus Christ!

2009-11-23T11:52:00.005+08:00

Telematch
+
Lunch at JJ
+
Caroling Practice
+
Youth
+
Barbecue dinner

The result?
They were all so FREAKING AWESOME!

I laughed till my stomach hurts...a lot. LOL.
Telematch was the best! It was raining thou...

We got incredibly wet. From head to toe, all wet wet wet. Before I even start with the third station, I already got wet!
*SOMEONE* wet me with ICE WATER using the sponge. Gahhh!
But i got my revenge. =P

Benjamin Chai went crazy...something wrong with his mind. While we were in JJ, he went to buy a hairband...as in those type that girls use. He wanted to buy black but I told him to buy PINK. LOL! And i polished his pinky fingers' nail. HAHA.

Caroling practice, nothing much. We just sang a few songs, but it was fun! I wanna go for caroling...=(

Then youth...praise and worship. Learned about The New Age Beliefs...something like that lar.
After discussion, we went and play netball+basketball. LOL? 5 girls vs 1 boy? HAHA!

BARBECUE! Had fried noodle, rojak, chicken wing, fishball and marshmellow!! Went to the playground after that. I love the swing. LOL.
I wasn't full yet! Had cheesy wedges and KFC hot rods after I got home. =D
Then chatted on the phone for two hours or so...

-ILOVEJESUS-

-and my new target is??-
HAHA! God knows who's that person...

=)

2009-11-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON
I want NEW MOON

I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP
I want to go to YOUTH CAMP

I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING
I wanna go CAROLING

God please help me ;)
I really really really wanna go for caroling and youth camp.

2012

2009-11-13T22:06:00.008+08:00

What's with Judgment Day?
Obviously, I watch 2012!!!
The end of our world...

...we were warned...

So, here's a synopsis about the movie.

"In year 2009. a scientist named Professor West rushes to the research facility in India, where a colleague named SATNAM has made a mysterious yet alarming discovery. The Sun Storm is giving grave effect on our Earth. Neutrinos are heating up the Earth's crust. He then contacts his friend, ADRIAN HELMSLY, a young scientific advisor to the president. Helsmly attempts to brief the U.S. President WILSON about the discovery but is stopped by ANHUESER, white house's chief of staff.

Things move forward to 2010. President Wilson is aware of what is happening and calls a private meeting with seven other prominent world leaders. What he has to tell them, is that the world's top scientists have confirmed that the world will soon come to an end. Meanwhile, in Tibet, the Chinese military displaces several villages and begins working on what is supposedly a massive dam-building project.

Finally we reach year 2012. By now, signs of impending doom have been steadily accumulating.
We are introduced to Jackson Curtis, a chauffeur and inspiring novelist, who is supposed to take his two kids to go on a camping trip in Yellowstone National Park. He tries to search for the place where he and his ex wife(KATE) used to hang out, but it was gone. He and his kids trespassed the restricted area. That's when he meets with Helmsly.

Jackson also meets with a crackpot radio host, CHARLIE FROST, a bit of a *cuckoo* guy.
He believes that all signs point to a major catastrophic beginning in California, spreading to Yellowstone and destroying the whole world. Who knows that he has been right all along?

Meanwhile, a massive crack occurs at a supermarket, where Gordon(Kate's boyfriend) and Kate was shopping in. Jackson, along with the kids, rush back to Kate.
Jackson is called off to work and he finds out about the end of the world.

He rushes back just in time to get Kate, the kids and Gordon. By then, the whole California is crashing down. Jackson drives them to the place where he booked a plane. They then fly to Yellowstone to search for Charlie for the map.

What map?? The map that leads them to safety. While they are trying to escape, the largest volcano erupted in Yellowstone-almost causing Jackson's life..."

And who knows what will happen to Jackson and his family?
And also the rest of the citizens?

You hafta watch it to know it. =)

*thumbs up*
Awesome. RM6 for ticket not wasted.
And oh, I love this quote;

-The moment that we stop fighting for each other, is the moment we lose our humanity-

~waiting for New Moon~
~TAYLOR LAUTNER is DAMN HOT!~

The Urge to Blog

2009-11-12T19:58:00.003+08:00

I feel like blogging. Making my blog interesting again. Filling it with pictures I took.
Maybe it is because I haven't been blogging for quite a long time. =)
Visited bloggerunited.com just now and also twitter.

Gonna catch 2012 tomorrow in Parade with Li Xin. Jas was supposed to come along but i text her and she said she can't go! T_T. Gonna shop for presents tomorrow for Zale and Yee Kee. Maybe go try on some dresses too. Hehe.

I'm still not sure whether I should bring my phone and camera to school. Exams are all over, except SPM and its quite dangerous for us to bring phones and cameras to school nowadays.
I'm afraid that it might be ~~confiscated.~~ :(

Anyways, as usual my uncle took me to the pet shop few months ago. I saw doggies and hamsters!! Of course I took pictures of them. How can someone like me not take pictures of such cute creatures? HAHA.

Hamsters!! They're just so cute

DOGGGGGIE!

Imagine hugging them to bed...how comfortable. I'm gonna save the other pictures for the next post I guess.

And now, I'm gonna eat my food!! I'm starving to death right now. It rained heavily, and still raining now. Flooded everywhere. Water levels rising. Gahhhhhh. When will this rainy season end?? I can't even go cycle!! What the fish...

Two Heron of '09 Class Party

2009-11-10T22:45:00.014+08:00

Oh yeah! Food and food and food. Fun and fun and fun!
Its TWO HERON CLASS PARTY!!
Wooooooooooooooo! You know what, I've gotta be honest. When i was in Oriole last year, i really don't feel like going up to Heron. But now I've realized that its fun to be in Heron and I wish to stay. LOL.
Anyways, we brought games to school. Li Xin brought UNO and we played till we were mad. Haha. Pn. Jessie ordered KFC. *yummmmmmmmm*

Actually, we had a lot of problems organizing it. First, we thought of having it in Excelsior or Syuen. But it all turned out to be a mess. :(. So the final decision was to have it in school. :)

Enjoy the pictures peeps.

Sexy legs. LOL

Future Miss MGS.

Playing Speed!

MURUKU fan!

my drink...hehe

Yin Wei's hand and the marker.

YEE KEE!!

Congkak players

♥STUDENTS OF TWO HERON♥

Steamboat ;)

2009-11-09T23:31:00.008+08:00

Woah. Lots of pictures right? Just enjoy them. Some were taken by my sister. You can tell the difference, cause I don't use flash. =D. By the way, the food was....delicious!

Michael Jackson!

2009-11-08T15:36:00.006+08:00

Saturday 7th October '09
Michael Jackson's This Is It
One word, ~~AWESOME!!~~
*thumbs up*

I was not, really a fan of MJ. But after I watched it, I'm so obsessed with his songs!
The way they dance, so freakin cool.
It was a tiring day though. I attended the GB BB Combined Christmas Celebration in the morning. Then went to Jas's house and went to JJ with her till 7p.m. =D

Let the pictures do the talking. ;)

One of his song I'm always listening to is They Don't Care About Us. Ahhhhh!! So damn nice.

-long live the king!-

Sampan, Sail Boat or Ocean Liner?

2009-11-03T17:22:00.003+08:00

Which one you wanna choose?
Mrs Lee, I won't choose those three. I'll choose to be myself. =)

Those three type of boats were mentioned by our Pengetua today during Hari Penghargaan.
Haha. Sampan is the worse, while Ocean Liner is the best. Ya know why?
Sampan means you need people to push you only you'll start working. Ocean Liner?
You have your own GPS navigator! Which means, you don't need anyone to tell you what's right to do or wrong. LOL.

Ahh, hours of sitting there is torturing. Sadly, I couldn't take any pictures. You know why? Cause I was sitting near the teachers, especially Pn. Chan. I don't wanna get caught.

By the way,

CONGRATS TWO HERON of '09! We WON 'Kebun Angkat'. FIRST PLACE! Know how much we've got?
RM250 weh! Which means we don't have to pay additional money for our class party.
Hmmm, i'll upload some photos from the camera.

I'm soooooo getting a B for History. Sigh. Sucks man. English sucks too! 80 only.
I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo GLAD that this year is coming to an end. I don't have to see my English teacher anymore.(herongirlsyouknowwhoisit).
I never got this low for my English before. Sigh. I'm not trying to be LC lar. But seriously weh, couldn't accept the fact that I got 80.

Okay, whatever. The fun's coming. Hehe. Oh oh, I can't wait to watch 2012. Looks freakin' awesome.

;)

Re-generate.

2009-11-01T01:26:00.004+08:00

Haha. Awesome. The feeling of after exam is damn nice. You can do whatever you want. Burn your books, notes, or just throw them in the river. On a second thought, lets not pollute the river. HAHA!

My blog is finally going to be alive, once more. I've abandoned it for quite a long time. Whole lots of stuffs happened. So, which part shall I start with?

...Lets see...

I can't recall back anything. LOL. I know this sound ridiculous, but I really don't remember anything special happened.
Not in any relationship, not eye-ing on someone, not interested in anyone. No accidents happened. My activities for the last whole month was effing BORING. Sorry, the last time i blogged was long ago.

Some pictures to...brighten up my blog now.

Something went wrong with this thingy. Sigh. I meant, when I upload pictures, the pictures won't come out. Only a bunch of codes that can make your eyes go blind looking at them. Those were the photos taken long ago on a boring night.

Btw,there's damn lotsa movies I wanna watch. Pandorum, Surrogates, FD 4, Jennifer's Body, This Is It, 2012. Well, a lot. I hope next Friday I can catch Jennifer's Body.
Finally, after weeks of stucking with books, I can go out and have fun. Fun won't last long though. Gonna have to attend tuition classes starting from December.

Gonna have to prepare for war. Haha. Nah, just kidding. The war I mentioned, actually means PMR which is next year.

Anyways, I'm gonna quit the crap right now.

toodles

Public?

2009-09-20T14:19:00.001+08:00

Hey, I've thought of putting my blog back in public. I'm done with hiding it. =D
So, should I? I don't know. HAHA

Crazier!

2009-09-09T15:52:00.006+08:00

You make me...crazier, crazier!
I'm getting crazier! Bwahahahaha. WTF am I laughing about? ~~fcuk~~

Okay, I'm swearing again. GAH! I've lost my mind, I am still losing it!

Last weekend was fun. =D Poi Lam, bored. LOL! The haunted house was not scary at all.
Instead of getting scared by the so called ghosts, I got scared by a balloon. I know I'm smart...HAHA! =)
Badminton on Monday was good. Darn I hate my racket!

1)I need a new racket(obviously a better one)
2)I need a new pair of badminton shoes(old one's tornnnnn!)
3)I think I need contact lens...=)

That's all I'll be needing, and craving for.

And...and...and, will 'YOU', stop treating me like your FREAKIN' GIRLFRIEND?!
A better word, ASSUME that I'm your girlfriend. Go **** yourself.
I am so not going to be your girlfriend, even if you're the last guy on Earth.
I've had enough of your stupidity and you annoys me a lot! I repeat, A LOT!
And, I'm not gonna reply your sms unless I feel like it. Cause you're too freakin annoying!

PS: you know who you are...damn you.

Gosh, people nowadays are, mad. Just because of others creating stupid names like, T&C and craps. DAMN, just because you treat someone better, care for them, they'll think the other way. =.=!

Lets see, Daddy bought a new bicycle. Hehe. So I go cycle almost every evening. My butt hurts...=(
And I'm totally addicted in B-A-D-M-I-N-T-O-N. Still, I'm not good in it.

School, I pity NT. Try open your...at least windows lar. Open your windows let some *fresh air* in ma. Unlike me, I opened everything and now it's time to close my door and let my windows open. And put a *Under Renovation* sign there. Haha. Only few of us will understand whats with the windows and doors.

Only time heals...

WOW

2009-08-31T00:01:00.006+08:00

Okay, so when was my last post? Millennium ago? Okay, never mind. It was August 16th.
Hehe.
A big WOW! So many things happened you know.
Where do we start?

Soooooo, our choir competition was, one word; A-W-E-S-O-M-E!
Oh hell yeah it was! But, too bad, few of of them were absent, due to the rumor of H1N1 in our school. I still hope we win. =D
Sadly, our Geography teacher, Mr. Wong aka Papa Wong, or Mr. Yellow, left us after serving the school about 23 years that day.
I am pretty sure that the teachers were upset, and so were we. So was I. Although only half year he taught us Geography, but I have to admit that he's a really really, REALLY good teacher.

We're gonna miss you, Papa Wong. =(

Anyways, our class bought something for him. A farewell gift. The pictures are not with me. Visit this link www.baby-lixin.blogspot.com to see the pictures.
Here are some pictures from me.

Holidays, equal. Both bad and good. Why? ~~Stupid-freakish-dumbo-idiot-damn~~ FOLIO! Good? I went for badminton TWICE. Awesome awesome awesome!
Could have been better, but I don't wanna talk about that person anymore.
Both also 5 hours time. =D
Btw, I prefer SINGLEs more than DOUBLEs.

Some problems with my friends. Dating dating, this is the consequence for DATING at this AGE! Damn it. Damn! My bestfriend's MOM is making a ~~fcking~~ wrong decision. I just hope she will change her mind. Else, me and someone will surely murder her.

And, i see people always sighing nowadays. Especially few of my friends, like I said.
Makes me upset too...=( Cheer up mates.

That's all I guess? Updates coming...thousand years later.
JK!

Updates =)

2009-08-16T15:11:00.006+08:00

-after SMI drama-

Ummm...I've no idea where to start.
Been decades since my last update.
Anyways, exam just finished few days ago. Results ok ok. Not that bad. xD

Last night's SMI Drama was better than last year's Camelot. Haha. I like the rapping, by the Warlord. Nice. Although I felt lonely there...lol.
KBOX next Saturday. That is the fun I'm waiting for.

Started chatting back with some old friends. Quite fun.

School is like...another place where I want to be besides home. My friends are all there. I feel fun being in school, despite the-oh-so-boring-studies-and-teachers.
I share my problems with friends in school, feels good. We laughed, we joke, we have fun.
Merdeka is coming soon. Inter-class choir competition.

Total madness and fun. We decorated our class, and practiced for the choir. Haha. I'm in melody, and hell, its hard. The songs we chose are like, so damn high pitched! Lets hope 2HERON will win this time, instead of 2HORNBILL.

H1N1 is getting serious. But, I don't care. Won't so easily get infected.
Sigh. I'm in no mood to talk or do anything now. Even updating my blog. Just updating it for the sake of some readers. Sorry, long time no update. Pictures are in my camera, will upload if I have time.

Visit this link to see my KL-Melaka Trip pics; http://s875.photobucket.com/albums/ab313/PIggieAnnie/

And here's something I created.

Only Us

It’s like I’m in a timeless dream

Surrounded by whitey mist

Seeing pale amber roses everywhere

Searching for your presence

Here and there

Where are you? Where are you?

I see your image in my head

I held my hand out to you

Failed to reach…

You faded away like the mist

Lying on the soft grass

Under the night sky filled with white shining stars

I see you, up above

Again, I tried to hold you

Again, you faded away like the clouds

I sit on the brownish sand

Hearing the sound of the gentle waves

Looking at the breath-taking sunset

I see you, in the orange sky

Yet, I could not hold you

I stand at the end of the street

Seeing distinct leaves fall

Feeling chill breeze sweeps through

I sit on an empty bench

Hoping for you to be there

I’m waiting for you…I’m waiting

Waiting for the day to be with you again

Up at the hills, under the clear blue sky

Beside the gentle ocean, at an empty street

No one else, but the both of us

Only us...

100% I did that myself.

Kokoro kara anata o aishite imasu.....

If a heart can be warmed by care and love,
I'd do whatever it takes to make it work.
I don't mind being unappreciated,
Cause I don't ask for anything in return.

ME+ME=LOST

2009-07-25T23:53:00.005+08:00

WOOOOOOOOO!

Imma have to get my log book ready.
Write a letter for Pn. Ang.

*hope she approves*

Today's AMC's Canteen Day was...

ok ok only lar. Not that fun. People that I wanted to see cannot see.
People that I did not want to see, saw almost everywhere I went.
Wtf right? Yes, its him I did not want to see.
I acted like nothing when I saw him. Who cares?

*thumbs down*

I got flu after I came home from AMC. (H1N1) NO WAY! =(

Anyways, skip today. Don't feel like talking bout it. I'm waiting for MGS's Pesta Ria.

Friday, was a total madness! Brought camera to school. HOHO! And our KH teacher, Pn. Cheong, went for khursus, so our last two period, there was no teacher in class.
That's when the class went wild...ngek ngek.

*BOOBS* fights!
Yes, you did not see wrongly. It is BOOBS fights!
Crazy eh? I've got the video. And pictures.
Currently suffering from flu and cough madness. Gotta go sleep.

Me and Li Xin
outside trinity

Butterflies at our garden...

wonderful sky...

Me and Charroo(my deskmate) look so cacated

Charroo and YK

ME and CHARROO

Charroo being tortured...LOL

The fight...

Cantonese class??

Stupid ms loh made us draw...

And I curi snapped nicole's photo...spy

Zale And Chak...rained heavily in the morn...

Nightsss

PS:2HERON IS CRAZY

-in my heart, i longed for ur presence-

Dead Serious!!

2009-07-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

I'm serious about one thing!
I've decided to quit GB aka Girls Brigade and join GG aka Girl Guides.
The problem is...

I needa write a letter for the GB teacher adviser, which I've no idea HOW.
And, if she doesn't approve me, I won't get to join GG.
Hell, I hope she approves.

I need to state out my reasons for quitting, which I'm going to think of something.
Aihs, met Ms. Swaran today, she said its a bit too late. But, I just have to complete the log book and take the test. Then she'll enroll me.

And oh, I'm broke!! Bankrupt? Yes! I had to pay for farewells. With the money I saved.
Skipping recess, gonna have to save up some for holidays.

Canteen's Day(saturday)
Band finals(wanted to go,nobody accompany)
Sejarah folio(hand up next week, haven't even start)
Geo folio(hand up tomorrow, haven't finish)
Monthly coming...(sh*t)
Trial coming(goodluckisaac)

I guess that's all? Wish me luck. Hope she'll approve.
We gone crazy in the class...I'll update more the next post.
Bringing camera to school tomorrow. There'll be pictures. =)

And I hope he's jealous...lol.

i've got lots to prepare...
gonna sign off now...tata peeps

-watever it is, you're still the one I'm interested in-
love you...

Ann Ann Gone Crazy! blahhh♥

2009-07-15T15:33:00.006+08:00

Aku sudah mahu mati kerana TERLALU BANYAK kerja rumah.

...Dan aku sedang marah kat dia...
...geramnya!!!...

Homework...
...is piling up like a mountain...

Science, BM, Eng, Seni, Sejarah, Geography

Grrrrrrrrr! Folios...three folios!
Why oh why must we suffer from folios and homework???

I'm going craaazy! Missed badminton today.
Too too too many homework!
Heron is so special. Our class shifted to Upper Hall, which means we don't have to climb 4 flight of stairs. Hehe!

Reason; Standard 6 is having their trial...so, our class is way TOOOOOOO noisy!
Wondering why I still have time to update?
Cause...i need to relax a bit mah. If not I really will go crazy.

Gahhhh! Sitting beside Li Xin is....TORTURING yet...FUN! My hands and arms and legs will get conteng by her. Lol. She even wrote a stupid stupidy story...
Our science teacher is outta her mind...
She gave us sooooo darn many exercises!
Gosh....

And aku sudah buat keputusan untuk pergi ke AMC's Canteen Day.
Why am i suddenly in Malay? Maybe because the government's going to change it back to Malay again...but nothing to do with us.

Anyways, here are some RANDOMNESS!

-this is what we call CUTE!-

Love love love♥
Musical teddies? WEEEEEE~

So long...farewell...

-angry angry angry!!-
-Geminis tend to hide their feelings-
-yesistartedreadingdailyhoroscope-
-andiminlovewithBYTES-
-charroo congrats for getting know who is S-

~~homeworks,ihateyou~~

Another Busy Month? (edited)

2009-07-05T01:45:00.010+08:00

++JULY++

Lets welcome another busy busy BUSY month...

So, lets start with last Saturday which was 27/06/09.

School day. A wonderful day. Why? Parade with Isaac. Haha. Transformers Revenge of the Fallen was awesome awesome awesome! *thumbs up*
Megan Fox's HAWT! [im no les] Was a truly fun day...although was tired. Thanks Isaac for belanja-ing me everything. =P. Guys, don't be jealous cause I watched Transformers Revenge of the Fallen.

Hehe...i took his pic...leng zhai leh...

++Was wearing the necklace he gave++

Wednesday 1st July
Badminton meeting. Stayed back. So unlucky. Abbe hit me with her racket. My arm hurts.
Mom forgotten to bring me my racket. Had to borrow from friend. Sorry Yee Kee...

Thursday 2nd July
D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R! Why? Parents-Teachers Day aka Report Cards' Day. Results...one word, BAD! So far, no bad comments from teacher. Thank you teacher. Dad didn't scold. Phone still with me. Lucky me. Will suffer without my darling phoney...

Friday 3rd July
CF was one word...FUN! I love God. I love Jesus. After what Anna and Jessica said that day, I finally realized more. I feel very relax everytime during CF meeting. Had games after the sharing. *ouchie*...someone accidentally knocked my head.

Saturday 4th July
Went to Sekolah Semangat Maju aka SSM to help set up the game stalls. It was soooo far away from my house. Kampung Tawas. Its a disabled children school. Fun helping there. Snapped some pics. T_T. Can't go on Sunday. I wanna go...

Here ya go...enjoy =)

Me and another girl's art work...hehe. Nice leh...

Doing the dunno what can...

Li Xin and Zale's work...

Anyways, thats all for the week. August will be busy too. MGS's IU Day. Have to help out. Gotta prepare for monthly, which will be in August. Then, will be going out also. Maybe even next Friday, gonna meet him again.

Sunday 5th of July, I won't forget this day. Once again he told me he loves me. I should feel happy, right? But...I guess I'm not....or maybe I am. I feel afraid at the same time. I'm afraid that, if we get together again...we'll end up the same. I don't want him to tell me that he still love another girl when we're together. No, not again.

Everything just happened...so suddenly and so fast. I really have no idea what I should do. UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I guess we both need somemore time...i'll wait.

That's all! I'm signing off...so sleeeeepy. So tireeeeeed...
I'm totally feeling so dizzy now...

-tata-

Iloveyou,zhu.

Two In One

2009-06-24T16:12:00.004+08:00

Let's start with Anderson's IU Day.

'Music Beyond Boundaries'

GAHHHHHHH! The night before I slept quite late cause went for the Sleeping Beauty concert.
Then morning woke up I went..............SHIT! The dance...today is the day.

L-O-L!!

Do not laugh...but the very last time I performed on stage was in primary school and also in church...when I was just a kid! And I don't DANCE!
HAHA!

Woke up, get ready. Received message the moment I woke up. I was so blur that I got confused. I thought Joevy was Joelene and Joelene was Joevy. It was still quite early lar. And I was quite nervous also. Packed all my stuffs...done and went to Anderson.

I was wayyyyy tooooo early. The first one to reach there. Ben said he'd wait at the front gate, but see see, I reached before him. Lols. Luckily Joelene and JoAnn reached, saw them, got out the car and followed them. Then Ben and Zale reached, then Li Xin. Went into a classroom and had our practice.

Our performance was at 12.30. So we had plenty of time. Actually, not really a lot of time lar. Cause the whole thing started at 9.00 a.m. Practiced practiced practiced. Finally, went into the hall. Luckily not so many people. Haha.

Last practice on the stage, cause we gotta make sure we have enough place on the stage. If not, some of us will go *flying* down the stage. HAHA! It was cool...

First to perform was Ben and his friend...[forgottenhisname]. Bboys! Damn yeng weh. Then we had games, BOOHOO MC! We MGS so geng! Won twice. MC go home ler. Haha. *evil me*
Oh before that, the emcee that day was a guy named Gregory, he's really funny! Anyways, we had more performances after that.

PS:while watching the perfomances, i was smsing someone...calmed me down.

I did not take any pictures...which was a TOTAL WASTE! I have like...300++ photos waiting to be resized and uploaded. So, I wasted two fun and nice day. Sleeping Beauty concert I didnt take pictures also. =(

Anyways, they totally rawk! After that we had our lunch. [currychickenrice!] I was feeling quite hungry, cause didn't eat anything since the moment I woke up. But after eating something spicy and dance, I'll totally have to suffer. Wattudo? I ate, but didn't finish.

Then ta-da! Our turn. Unfortunately, the mic sudah rosak. Lols. P.A system. So, no mic. If not, it would have been more fun. Anyways, the dance was OK! Not KO..=P. Screwed up a little...timing not correct. Haha. Joevy videoed the whole thing. And uh...finally over. Relax relax...
Then, Greg and his band or watever, I don't know, performed too. Damn nice!

Our school aka MGS won the most supporting school. We actually cheered the loudest. It was totally fun. And that's it.

-The End-

Ipoh Starwalk '09, Sunday 21st June.

Starwalk=no fun,tiring,sleepy,lonely
Imisshim

First time joining Starwalk. Hehe.
Sleptover at my friend's house on Saturday night. Actually, I was kinda too tired to go. After the dance thingy, my leg also pain. But...paid already, so I went lor.

Automatically woke up at 5.30 the next morning. Checked my phone...unread msges. Hehe. Fell asleep and didn't reply ppl's msg. Woke up and...felt so lazy. Replied msges and waited for my turn to bath. Bathed, went down for breakfast and ready to go.

I was so unlucky...my toe nail actually came off. I thought it was nothing, so I didn't care lar. It was before the walk. Anyways, it did hurt. Reached stadium and I was like...wtf! So damn many people. Followed my friend walked to the Starting/Finish point to wait for other friends.

See see, it was almost 7.00 a.m., we had to walk to the Velodrom to register ourselves.
Reached there LAGI TERUK!
So...sesak. Can easily get lost. A lot a lot a lot of people. I couldn't find Li Xin, Yee Kee, and Isaac. And others. And stupid Digi service was not working. Line busy busy busy! Cause too many people were making phone calls. =(

Finally, we found them. Then finally, it started. Walked with Li Xin, Ben, Yee Kee, Samuel, I Yin and Isaac. Haha. Fun. Pity myself...the girls don't want to peduli me. Left me with the guys. Then always kena hit on the head. Haiz...got bullied. Haha.

We were walking and we were pushing each other. See lar, walk also want to play. It was fun at first, I get to play while walking. Then when reached somewhere, Li Xin and the others were all gone. T_T. Left me and Isaac. Aha. You know what, I purposely walked outside where the cars were all passing by...then someone was asking me not to walk so out.
Did not listen...and kena pulled in. =P
That someone was...hehe. [guess who was that]
Happy to know that he cares for me.

Poor me. In the end, he left me also. I walked all the way to the finish point MYSELF! Alone...ihatebeingalone. Sucks. Totally sucked. 10km was nothing, I don't feel tired. Thought of slowing down and wait for Fred, but he was toooooooooooo slow! Sigh...i have to admit that I wasn't feeling quite happy. Lols.

After that, looked for YK, then found LX, and we went into the stadium to watch the perfomances and the lucky draw thingy. Saw him there. But ignored. Lols. Sat with LX and Ben and Samuel at the top. Was so freakin' bored.

PS:he gave me a necklace as my bday present that day, and I was playing with it.

Went for lunch after that at the food court. He was there too. With Sherlyne. I actually saw him, but I acted I didn't see him. [badbadme] Sat quite far away. Ordered our food. Was supposed to share laksa with LX, but I didn't. Didn't even finish my chee cheung fan. Haha. No appetite to eat, although was feeling hungry.

Then he came over and er, sat beside me. Then blah blah. Chatted and played. Stupid arm wrestle. I didn't know he's so strong. Lols. He was sad lar actually...so i was trying to cheer him up lor. Li Xin went home first, followed by Ben. Left me and him alone there.

'Arghhhhhhhhhhh...'

Thanks for your present...

Sleeping Beauty

2009-06-22T16:07:00.007+08:00

Might be boring for some people lar, but for me it was really nice.
Especially the little kids!!!! AHHH! They're soooooo cute and they look so tiny!

So, I went on Friday night. Was so freakin' tired cause we've got full dress rehearsal that day for the Anderson's IU Day. Went to Anderson, of course. Tell you guys in the next post about what happened. Lols. So, I reached home at 6.30 p.m like that...RUSH RUSH RUSH! Cause I got to go at 7 something! The concert started at 8.00 p.m SHARP! I reached there just on time.

Pleaseeeeeee don't laugh! I got lost when I reached there...tee hee. I called Yee Kee asked her where the heck is she. Then I don't know where to go...so I walked into the car park lor. And luckily I saw BEN! *thank goodness*

Lets see who I went with...I went with Yee Kee, Isaac and his friend Eugene. Sat with Ben, Joe, I Yin, Nat and of course the three of them lar.

PS:sittin in front of ben can really die...

Haha. Just joking. Enjoyed the show a lot. Li Xin was PRETTY! Can still recognize her even though she was in a heavy makeup. =P
It was quite cold inside anyways.

So, the first perfomance was our school choir AKA MGS choir. Then the Little Swans[supeeeeeerb cute]. And after that was the Malay Dance. Li Xin and Eva looked soooooo nice. Then the third one was the party girls or something like that. Don't really like it. Haha. Fourth was Sound of Music.

That...was wonderful! I like the music, I like the dance...but most of all, I like the little kids!!
And finally, Sleeping Beauty. Haha. Throughout the whole thing, I didn't really talk to him. Or I should say we didn't really talk to each other. And you know who's the him I'm talking about right?

Aiya, we only know how to look at each other and ask 'what?'. That's stupid I know. I was msging Fred and he was looking. Lols. Then he msged me. See lar...sitting beside each other also want to msg. Waste money...haha. =D. Seriously, we didn't talk. Ben was disturbing me. Lols.

After that thing ended, I stayed up there for a while with Ben. Then went out with Zale and walked out alone.

********************************************

That's all lar peeps.
-When I close my eyes, I see you-
-When I'm asleep, I dream of you-
-And when I'm awake, I think of you...-

15/6 is the DAY!

2009-06-15T17:01:00.004+08:00

'H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y'

to who leh?
HAHA! Of course...to ME lar!
So unlucky, first day of school after two weeks of holidays. =D
But yet, I'm still very HAPPY!
Not many presents, but yet I'm still happy.
Thanks guys for all your wishes.

FREDERICK LEE! Haha...you're still the FIRST one who wished me. The lovely fishy...[youowemeone]

CORN aka LI XIN the second, haha. Loves you dear. Jia you for the concert. Don't get too tired.

and the third? Someone...HAHA! ISAAC. I thought he forgotten...but no. =D Sang me birthday song too...SWEET[yourvoiceisnotthatbad,PINKMONSTER!]. imwaitingforyoupresent...isaachowenwei

And BIG THANKS to Wing Yee for the cuuuuuuute pillow.

And yea, thanks guys.
Too bad its a school day...lols.

Anyways, that's all lar. Perasan me update new post just to wish myself Happy Birthday.
Hehe.

*waits till Friday night...*

-Gotta go...-
Remember peeps, 15/6
Haha!

[iiimmmiiisssyyyooouuurrrvvvoooiiiccceee]
=can't wait till Friday night...=

Scary Parade Outing

2009-06-13T23:30:00.002+08:00

Went out to Parade with Li Xin, Ben, Sherlyne, Audrey and errr...Amy. Yea. Was so freakin tired after coming back from the trip on Thurs and yet I still had the energy to go out on Friday. Jas was supposed to go, but she was busy with band. So...yea. Thought want to cancel it, but see see, nevermind lor.

Someone wanted to go, but can't go. =(. Wanted him to go so badly. It would be so much fun if he was there. In the cinema more good. Cause we watched a scary movie...and at least got someone can stay by my side.

I reached there around 12 something and waited together with Sherlyne for Ben and Li Xin.
After that we went to buy movie tickets. Wanted to watched '17 Again', but turned out we bought tickets for 'Drag ME to HELL'!!

[recommended to WATCHED!]

So, after buying movie tickets we went to Kenny Rogers for lunch. Only me, Li Xin and Ben. We shared food. Haha. =D. Went shopping after eating. Me and Li Xin shopped for clothes. We took different clothes and tried it all out in the fitting room. Haha. Pictures not with me. Gonna edit the post when I got the pics. Sorry peeps.

So funny lar in the fitting room. Lols. Bought myself a pair of clothes!

[purpleshirtwhiteshorts]

Im gonna wear it on Friday night I guess.[YES!its MGS SLEEPING BEAUTY!!c'mon ppl, come and watch our beautiful ballerinas!]

Short of time. Went it FOS, not FOC! Haha. Wanted to try on some dresses, but was running out of time. Went up, bought our drinks and food[IhadIceLemonTea and CORN!]
And the scaaaaaaaaaaaaaary movie started....

*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

I nearly throw up at the beginning, thanks to the old lady in the movie, Mrs. Sylvia Ganesh! The Gypsy lady...ughhhhhh, she's so ******* gross....

The starting was already scary, it scared me. Haha. I actually did scream. Followed the girl in the movie[Christine Brown], she screamed I screamed. I hurried and finished my corn and I was hugging Li Xin. Haha. Poor Sherlyne sat beside me alone...[sorry!!]
It was really scary...not really but mostly it was SUPER GROSS! Throughout the whole movie I was hoping that there's someone there that can hug me...

And finally the movie ended...FINALLY! Time to go home...haha. Ben was kind enough to offer me a ride home, but I said no cause my grandma was on her way. Thanks Benji. =D

That's all...hoho. Updates for the three day trip to Malaca and KL...[soon]
Too many pictures to resize and upload. Coming weekend will be busy. But yet I can see someone...2 days in the same week! [IMSOFREAKINGHAPPY!!!]

-loggin off...-

PS:anybody who wants to watch DRAG ME TO HELL AGAIN, pls inform me. iwannawatchitagain

Why? God, why?

2009-06-08T16:18:00.007+08:00

My hair's straight now!!
No kidding...yes its straight now. Haha.
I went for haircut yesterday, thought wanna straightened my fringe only, but ended out, I got it all straightened. Haha!
So, how do i look like? Compare to my old look, a lot people said its nicer now. *perasan*
Lol. But anyways, I do like it. =P

As you can see my post title, it ain't about my hair. Its about my LIFE! What's wrong with it?
Nah, nothing's wrong with it. Haha. My friends wouldn't believe if i say nothing's wrong with it. Especially those close ones. =D

Well, there is something wrong about it. I don't know. I'm currently lost in the middle of nowhere...in my life.
Ya know, one night, I kinda went crazy...i guess so. I prayed. And I talked and talked and talked....to myself most probably. Or maybe to God. I actually crapped a bunch of rubbish.
Asking 'Why this?' 'Why that?'

I was feeling quite upset cause few of my friends were upset. So I asked God,

"Why can't people leave their past alone and just go on with life??"
"Why can't they let whatever happen, happen??"

Or just...why can't they understand that stuffs happen for some reasons. And that they cannot change their past. They have to live on with it. Just...leave it wherever they are. Memories cannot be lost. They're forever stuck in your mind, unless you get brain damage or whatsoever.
So, once in a while they'll come back and search for you. Its just, how you handle it.

And, why can't I leave stuffs that I have no control over the way they are....?
I don't know why, but, I really can't bear to see my friends sad. I really want everyone to be happy. Especially my love ones. I really wish everyone could be happy...but like what someone said,

"If everyone in this world is always happy, this world will be colorless...'

Well, at least, let them learn their lessons from the mistakes they made in the past. And stand back up and be stronger from wherever they fell. And not let their past haunt them.
Haiya...I'm so stupid lar. These stuffs I cannot help at all de...

Anyways, my parents argued yesterday. I was...VERY upset. I managed not to cry thou'. Luckily my friends were there. They're always there for me. Love ya all. Sigh. I did nothing to help.
Maybe it was the right choice...for not interrupting. I walked out of the house, went to my aunt's shop. Cause I couldn't bear with it anymore. I didn't want to hear anything more. I didn't want to see...or listen.

I went out, and the rest, I've no idea what happened. I only know that, this family might...break apart one day. And i've no idea whether I can bear with it or not. I just hope that...nothing will go on like how I'm expecting it to be. I'm still upset...but, it won't help much. I didn't cry a single tear. Crying doesn't help...AT ALL! I fought really hard to hold my tears back. That's just...silly, right?

I can't do anything to help. All I can do now is to study hard...and be a succesful person in the future. And...most of all, be independent. That's what I'm aiming for now. My love life? Nah, throw it away first lar. Still young. I believe in the soulmate principle, and I also believe that in the future, the right one will come. So, let it be first. Focus on my studies. Next year will be a sufferin' year. PMR! Majoooooor war. Haha.

And I guess that's all I wanna say. Just to express my feelings. =)
And, Fred...don't let your brain become mince meat thinking over that stuffs. You'll know if she really loves you. Just wait for the time to come. Be happy, brother. Don't make me sad too.

Peeps, I'll be away for three days. Hehe. Wait for me to update my blog when i come back...blekkk!
-TOODLES!!!!-
will be missin you guys a lot....

PS:thank you God for giving me such wonderful friends...

Again?

2009-06-06T14:47:00.013+08:00

'mellllllllllllteeeeeeeeeeeeeeddddddddddddd......................'

And I thought Ipoh was already HOT enough...
Be in Perlis and you'll melt....
Seriously, it was damn hot there. The weather can kill.
Anyways, yea I went back to 'Boredom Land' again. Luckily didn't gain weight...cause got badminton to play. Haha. But it wasn't that fun.
I hate sittin' in the car for hours...made my butt aches. Haha. Plus, that Citra is not BIG enough. LOL!

This time went back, cousins were all there. Lucky. Not so bored, but still bored.
The only thing is that I really really REALLY can't stand the HOTNESS. Bath already like didn't bath. Sleep also can't sleep well. Sleep for one hour and you'll be sweating like hell when u wake up.

Anyways, pictures pictures.

These were on the way there...haha. In the car also very hot.
*melted* I had to put on my cap because the sun was so bright. Sunblock.
My face...my leg...my hands. Ish ish...I don't want to get darker...
I like the second picture...half face. Haha.

Anyways, reached there around 2.30 p.m in the extremely-hot-and-burning-afternoon.
As usual, took everything in and I eventually went to sleep. Cause I was tired. But before that...i was fighting with my sis over this big big soft toy doggie. Haha. I know its crazy to hug something like that to sleep in such hot weather.

I look like a kid with it...haha.

There you go...CUTE! I'm not only a teddy lover, I'm a toy doggie lover too! =P
Went to sleep then after that woke up in sweaaaaaaat. Euuuuwwww...its sooooo uncomfortable. Had to take shower...and inside the bathroom=WORSE! Its small...and its HOT in there.
After taking a shower in there, and if you stay any longer inside, you'll suffocate. No air to breath. Haha.

No kidding, its true. *i miss my own bathroom so much...big big space*
That evening was fantastic anyways. I met this cute little girl girl.
Picture below...the name's Ranieta. Haha.
Cute right? She loves to follow me and my sister.

She asked me to play badminton with her that evening, so I played lor. Bad choice. I just took my shower and after an hour I came back into the room bathed in sweat. Haha. Besides playing with her, I played with my Dad too. My Dad weh...geng. I remember he used to train me last time. Gahhhh...scary. But this time, I kinda won him. HAHA!

*evil grins*

The next day....

Nothing to do. I kinda stayed in the room the whole day. Hot hot hot...burning. Haha. Text people. And besides that, this was what I did, folded some stars. Haha. With words I wrote on it myself.

PS:i am really missin' someone...guess who is it...

it says; I [heartz] you...

and [i'm missin you]...

Hearts and stuffs. Haha. I folded one for Ranieta too...with her name on it.
She likes it a lot. =D

And at night,on the first day there, which was Tuesday lar, SMS DS SMS DS. So bored lar.
Look at the msg below, so bad that fella.

*have fun gettin stung....*

Ish ish. Guess who's that fella.
He knows who he is. Haha!

Left me like this...everyone busy gaming, nobody chat with me. Sigh.
So I slept early. Kesian me... [sorry for the disorder]. Haha. Uploaded wrongly.

The next day.....again.
I spent my afternoon with this, CHIPS! Imagine, FATTENING!!!
But luckily I got to play badminton with cousin sis in the evening. Which was quite fun lar.
Sweat sweat. So hot, and I was having migraine. Ish. Played with Ah Wat after that, that naughty fella....and I bullied him.

On that evening, went to night market AKA pasar malam with my mom and aunts and cousins.
Yea, after playing badminton, whole body still in sweat. Haha. Yucks.
Walked there, I like walking.
Walked hands in hands with little Ranieta. She's soooooooo cute!
Bought drinks, and food. Went home and ate. The fried noodles tasted not so good. Wanted to have chicken rice. T_T

Enjoy the pictures peeps...haha.

And then finally...the LAST DAY! So glad. In the morning, the electricity went off. GAHHHH! With fan already hot lar, without fan somemore wor, became roasted pig liao lor. Like I said, bath already also useless. Somemore it was in the morning. MORNING!

Packed and packed...sweat and sweat. Finally can go home. Home Sweet Home.
Didn't get to see little Ranieta that afternoon...too bad. Wonder how she'll feels when she finds that we're not there anymore. Haha.

Pictures on the way back...i looked weird with my Nike cap. It was realllly toooo hot and sunny. I even had my jacket covering my legs.

If you can notice, there's a relfection of the camera.

I had these in the car, was hungry. Haha. Didn't eat before starting the journey back home.

Look at the clear blue sky.....so nice...

Thats it. Oh...one thing. I forgotten to mention that, on the second day, we went for a foodcourt to have breakfast. The people were friendly. Haha. There's this guy, he's not fluent in English, but he tried his best to communicate in English with me and my Mom when we ordered. Haha.
He even asked where're we from. How nice of him. Friendly people like that hard to find nowadays.

Anyways, thats it. Nothing else. My butt still aching. Sigh. This time went back made me missed badminton. My hands itchy larrr! Wanna play. Few more days and I'll be on my way to Melaka! YAY!

Can't wait. There'll be more pictures then.

So long peeps....

Tata...=)

PS:this time it was a different person...who accompanied me...

A Day Out

2009-05-31T00:37:00.003+08:00

'Yawnnnn......'
I'm so tired...but I had great fun yesterday, which was 30th of May, Saturday.
What's so fun? Haha.
Had a long day out with him. Wanna know who's the him? I hope he would not mind if I reveal his identity here. Haha. The him is AKA Isaac.
Yeap...the one in my 'Fly Away' list.

Finally the holidays are here. Thank goodness...gonna have a break. But its going to be busy busy busy. Unfortunately, badminton had to be canceled. Sigh. I was the organizer and I myself had to call it off.
Why?
Reasons? Simple, just one;My dad came home and he said we have to go back to Perlis.
Its going to be a boring first week. Thought could go for badminton...even made a DEAL with Isaac...to have a match. Maybe will just hang out with friends after coming back to Ipoh. Then second week...school trip.

'cant waiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttttt.........'

There's going to be a lot of pictures when I get home and update my blog. HAHA! A lot of places to visit.

Anyways, lets get back to my story.

So, its like this. I went to Jusco with him, yes only him. Haha. My friends, don't let your mind WONDER farrrrrrr away. Nothing happened...nothing happened. So, we decided to watch Terminator Salvation. He reached like half an hour earlier than me, I think. So he went to buy the movie tickets. Then I reached and he came down to look for me. =D. And I saw Eva with her parents, i guess, at the Coffee Bean. Haha. Eva's my classmate.

Hmmm...then what? Yea, the movie was at 1.45p.m. So, we walked round and round and round Jusco. Haha. Then he belanja-ed me ice-cream. =P. He bought himself a drink and we sat outside the food court there and chit-chat. After that, we walked around again and finally sat on one of the benches and talked talked talked.

Around 1.30 we went up and he bought me a coke and then bought himself a bottle of mineral water and popcorn. Haha. The movie was awesome. But still I think Transformers Revenge of the Fallen will be better. Can't wait to watch it!! Grrrrr...it was freezing in the cinema. I wore shorts and just a plain T. Should have brought my jacket along. Plus the Coke...made me feel more worse.

The movie ended at around 3 p.m. Yea...so we went up to the bowling alley and it was quite packed with people...same goes to Imax. So, we went to MCD. This time, I paid of course. Cannot all he pay de mah. Had fries...and Coke again. Man, I'm gonna get diabetes soon. Lols. Twice in a day. Imagine...the sugar level. Gosh. Anyways, left one hour so we went up to Imax. Oh wait...before we went to Imax for the second time, yea we went up to the roof where peopl park their cars there...and yeah stayed there for a while. Haha.

It was sooooooooo high looking down from there. Nice place to commit suicide. LOL! Too bad my camera was not with me. And don't depend on my phone's camera...so cacat. So after that we went into Imax and played not more than one hour. My dad came around 6 and yeah I went home first.

It was really a loooong day...and also my first time going out shopping with a guy. I meant, only both of us lar. Weird that I wasn't scare of him. Haha. Didn't even feel nervous at all. I had great fun. =D

PS:thanks for the treat....

Thats it....my day. First day of the holidays.
Sigh...going back to Perlis again. Sigh...no badminton.
Nevermind.

Thats all guys...

Bye Bye

-I'll be rotten by the time I come back to Ipoh...-

The Torture is Over!

2009-05-23T00:17:00.006+08:00

One second passed...one minute passed...one hour passed...one day passed...ONE WEEK OF HELL OVER! *toooooooooooot*...I'm soooo excited...!

"WOOOOHOOOOO!!!"
Exam's over baby!
No more stress...sit back and relax while waiting for results. Results...gosh.
Haha. Finally, the one week hell is over! One week was like...one decade. Lol.
Holidays are coming soon. HAHA! First day gonna spend it with someone in Parade. =P

Exam sucks. Both BM papers were quite easy...English also. Ms Loh's gonna kick my ass cause my composition is more than 300 words. She says she wants it K-I-S-S aka Keep It SHORT and SIMPLE! Sivik...easy but I only got 93%. Haha. Didn't study at all for that. Geo, quite hard but still ok. Gonna get a B. Then Science, arghhhh. I screwed the paper! Dang...Maths too.

Maths is moreeeee worse! Damn...our Maths teacher never mention to us about the rule of 'Cannot Bring Calculator in for Maths Paper Two'. The whole class brought calculators in. Then I remembered can't bring...so I wanted to take it out. Then that Ms Loh started the paper 5mins earlier. GAHHH! When Ms Chee came in she saw our calculators and she said we CHEATED!
WTH! When they said we can't bring calculators in, the test already started. Then that Ms Loh also didn't care. Grrr...if she's going to deduct marks from our paper, I'd rather she demerit us.

KH was a disaster too...gosh. I'm so getting a C for KH! Sej was quite ok. A lot of careless and stupid mistakes. Arghhh...lets not talk about exam. Wait for the results...I'm so screwed man.

Anyways, here was what I did during the few nights of exam week. I studied until late night. One night I even drank 2 cups of nescafe...and guess what? I slept at 4 in the MORNING. Haha. The next morning drank another cup.

Literature and Geo...lols and my cup of nescafe.

Look at this....themes! gosh i actually memorized everything. Haha!
My eyes became panda eyes...every morning nescafe. Drank redbull also. Lol. I actually studied until I cried. Too stress. Was really really stressed out.

I prayed to God...to seek for comfort. Every night. And luckily someone was there for me.

PS: you know who are you...

I'm not gonna reveal his name. Gosh...I've never felt this way before. Never in my life...
No idea why this time exam is like...so super important for me. I felt so scared and stress.
Sigh...like no mood to do other things. But anyways, I got through it. Thanks to 'him'. =)
Saying encouraging words...haha.

Anyways, here's the update for exam. Haha. More coming up...plenty of time to update!

-toodles-

~thank you...thanks for being there when I needed someone most~

Busy Busy Busy...

2009-05-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

Its just a short post...mid-term coming very soon. Like I said, I'm gonna upload the pictures I took in the past few weeks. But hey people, so sorry I couldn't find any time.
Just to wish all the Moms in the world 'HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS' DAY!'
Haha. And erm...what else?
I suddenly feel like placing my fingers on the keyboard and type out something...
I needed to get something outta my chest...sigh.

Oh boy, mid-term is coming and yet I'm thinking of something else. Sigh sigh sigh...
Good news...I've finally let go of him. =D. I guess...haha. Yea yea, I guess ya know who's the 'him'.
Maybe that's all...I'm feeling so freakin' happy nowadays. No idea why!
But at the same time, I'm feeling quite...not right. Maybe because of something.
Gosh, its like I'm totally holding back the feelings towards someone. Denying it. Don't trust that its real.
GAHHHH! What should I do?...

~toodles people~
GOOD LUCK to those who are sitting for their EXAMS.
Good Luck to myself...lols.
Till nextttt week...
I'll write again when exam is over...
Write till you can't finish reading...=D

PS:im-longing-for-you-whenever-the-night-comes